It's my life

Am I a lazy FUCK or nah?

Alright so if you can't tell I'm a big cartoon fan.My favourite catoons are steven universe and gravity falls.I like cartoon since it can give more expression to faces and it has a more 'silly' fibe so I can laugh a little.I dunno I think alot of people still like cartoon since I hear about so many.So do you like cartoons?

Meh I do wish my life was like a cartoon.Always needs a happy ending!But no...my life doesn't work out that way It's actually the opposite.From what happened in my life I can't trust anyone anymore.I had to learn that the hard way and also lie to get out of it.Normally my old self wouldn't mind lying that's because I was lying about everything in the past.Some of my lies where for no reason.It just became an addiction but after I got in a new school things got better but I still lie a little from time to time.

These days if I lie it's to get out of an argument or of jealousy.I'm super lazy so I would sometimes act hurt so someone could do something for me.I regret it everytime after that!I can't believe how selfish I am.I really have to learn to put that addiction down for good...but I can't.I'm not lime my mom.She can drop her additions easily while I can't and I easily get new ones.Now that I think about it if we look like our personalities then you won't be able to tell where mother and daughter.

I don't know if I'm lazt or plainly tired.Cause I've recently given up on sleep due to a few...nightmares,but I also do get very easily tired.Every single little task I do drains alot more energy then it should so I dont bother doing anything anymore.So cause I easily get tired(even when slept well and early)I also don't sleep anymore so that doubles it.That makes my concentration levels low and I make poor decisions.I found myself to regularly slouch down when I stand and walk and I have my eyes only halfway open.I don't talk that much anymore since I'm too tired to be thinking about making a joke.So I let the boys take over that since their great jokesters.My best buddy would sometimes ask me what's rong.Then I would do one of two things.Change the topic with one of his interests or say 'I'm just tired'.THERE is the problem though.Everytime somethings rong I use the word just out of reflex and they'll start to notice the pattern

Honestly I gave up on humanity.Humans are more like animals than even tge animals themselves.Heck I think hell is better than humans(joke).I mean Seriosly they are cruel including me!Though not all people are bad (just most).and I bet the person reading this shit isn't a bad person.If you've read this far that means your actually interested in what I say...or it was a dare but anyway my point is...

Stop it
Get some help
And if you can't
Then come to me or your friends
I'm not a provisional
But I'm a listener
I listen to people
And I wouldn't
Tell anyone
Or judge you
No matter what