Used and Abused

  "Hey, are you okay?" I feel a man's hand shake my shoulder lightly.

  When I open my eyes I see a large room with fancy furnishings and beautiful decor. Nothing compared to my crap hotel I've been staying at. Oh my gosh! I'm not in my hotel...I must of drank too much and came home with someone else. When I look around the room I see Kris standing next to me in nothing but his boxer briefs. I look down at my own clothes and I'm in a silk nightgown. Oh no did we have sex? Two years since I've had any action and now I was too drunk enjoy the action I might of had. Shit, I hope we didn't have sex I really wanted to wait until I found Mr. right.

  "Shit... I'm sorry...did we...um.."

  "Huh, no, no we didn't. You past out on our way to your hotel and I didn't want to search through your things for your key, so I brought you back to my place. I hope that was ok."

  "Oh, yea that's fine. This is your house?"

  "Yea they finished a day earlier so I decided to bring you here instead of that cheap hotel."

  "Wow! It's really nice. May I ask what it is that you do for a living?"

  "I run my own business... I guess you could say in trade. Well it's complicated."

  "No, no. You're fine no need to explain yourself."

  "Ok well now that you're up how about we have some breakfast. I made a little of everything because I wasn't sure what you like."

  "Sure, I am pretty hungry. I'm sorry I ask a lot of questions, but why are you interested in me? I mean you're very attractive and we'll off, so I'm sure that there are a lot more suitable women for you."

  "Who says I'm interested in you?" He says with a smirk.

  I flush in embarrassment. I wasn't sure if he was even interested in me, but by his answer I should ave known it was to good to be true. Then again, why do I even care? I have shut so many men out of my life after Jason left me while I was pregnant. I cringe at the memory of the disgusted feeling I had for myself. Two years spent with that boy he made feel love for the first time in my life only to rip my heart out and leave me. I just thought our baby would be more important than the spawn of a chick he just met. Who knows, I sure in the he'll dont. Nothing in my ducked up life has ever made sense. I was an abused child that grew into a promiscuous teen that became addicted to sex and now well.... I just want to do something right in my life and die happy. Depression is so over rated these days and I refuse to be that girl who needs someone. All I need is myself and my purpose is to raise my daughter to be whatever she wants in life. Shit, I forgot that Kris is standing next to me in confused state now.

  "Sorry, I must of started day dreaming." I say once again embarrassed.

  "Do you always have nightmares?"

  "Huh?" That's random. Why would he ask that?

  "Well, you started tossing and turning in your slept and clenching at your pillow so I wasn't sure if your dream was a pleasurable one or a nightmare."

  If only he knew it was a little of both. "Oh, yea I have a few episodes of flashbacks from my past. Let's just say they happen more frequently than I would like and they are not happy memories."

  "I see. Have you asked a doctor about this."

  "No, I'm not a crazy person and it really isn't your business, so I'd appreciate it if you would stay the fuck out of it!" I spit at him in surprise.

  "Ok, ok, you win I'll leave it alone for now, but you don't need to be such a bitch about it."

  "Excuse me! Who the hell do you think you are to call me out of my name!"

  "Ok ok sorry I surrender. I'm just treating you with the same respect you give me."

  "Your right I did get crazy first didn't I? Well I really need to get my day started. I need to see what jobs are hiring before the weekend comes."

  "Why is that? You didn't get the job?" He asks while raising a brow.

  "No I didn't, and if I don't find a job by this weekend then I need to go back to Cali."

  "Really, well let me know if you have any luck. If you have no luck I could probably help you out, but you have to promise me another dinner date this Saturday."

  "Well if you have a job opportunity, why not tell me know?"

  "I rather save it as last resort.... I'll  tell you during dinner ok."

  "Fine, I'm starving anyway. Do you mind?" I look at him them glance at the door.

  "Hmm.... oh yes, yes of course. your clothes are on the chair." He heads to the door flashing that gorgeous smile before shutting it."

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