Thorn Year (가시연) (ENG)

(가시연 ) Thorn Lily: Main Story - CHAPTER 24

She came home. I could tell from the noise on the first floor. But I chose to shut myself in my room. Call me childish if you will, but I just want to focus on letting Kim Jaejoong's heart beat on. I had no wish to see him supporting her as she limped her way in. My tantrums began early in the morning. I had ignored Yunho when he mentioned that he was going out to fetch her home. Her, her, her! Everything's all about Lee Suh-hee! Hadn't we fought enough over the week because of her!?

Our relationship was being tested by an unprecedented force. For the week that she was hospitalized, we'd fought incessantly, but fighting alone wasn't enough. We'd throw and smash the things around us, and then wrap ourselves around each other in a passionate kiss, and then he'd hold me as we slept. Fighting at one moment and then be loving the next, day and night... over and over again...

But he looked more fragile with each day. Ten years... Even normal couples rarely had such a passionate love affair as we did, so even though nothing looked out of place, we could sense the slightest difference in each other.

The days passed on slowly, and then she came back. In the past when his mother died, he didn't even treat me as coldly as he did now. But I still endured it all. Even as he held me in my bed, he refused to face me. But even though he didn't say anything, I understood - he was all worn out from all these years of loving me like a madman, but receiving nothing but scars from our love.

My body grew colder as I let love sickness ravage it. I took out the coats I'd bought a few days ago, his and mine, which I had intended to give him as a couple coat. But we'd fought that day so I had no chance to give it to him. It felt really soft, but I only tasted bitterness in my mouth. Suddenly I started fumbling for a mirror...

"Ah..."

I... So I look like this now... I hadn't been looking into a mirror recently so I had no idea. Dehydrated skin, dead eyes, chapped lips... Everything's so different from before, from the time when his face started to look thinner... I must have changed a lot since then? Even this was so much like him... What would I do without you?

"You would probably live on happily even without me, right...?"

Those lips in the mirror held nothing but a beautiful sadness...

"Because you're Yunho... Not me "

Those eyes in the mirror held nothing but ambiguity...

"I had nothing left in this world except you "

Tears started to fall from those eyes... And those lips breathed a sigh... Tears and sighs. Like

Jung Yunho and Kim Jaejoong, entwined forever... Till death do us part...

It was a disquiet night as loneliness ate away at me. I lay still on the bed; has it been 10 hours? I felt sore all over...

He's probably asleep, I guess? Sleeping alone in the study without saying a word to me. I stumbled to the study and turned the door knob...

"Yunho's in our room."

Her voice came from behind me suddenly, and I was so surprised that I couldn't react for a few seconds. I turned to face her - could she see me in this darkness? Or did she anticipate that I could come downstairs, so she was lying in wait for me? Preparing so that she could squash me below her feet now? All the things I did seem like nothing compared to your tricks!

"He's tired, so he slept early..."

"Stop lying! How could Yunho be sleeping there!?" "Go and see for yourself, if you don't believe me!"