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I came across diverse personalities

That my insecurities, untruthfulness became stronger

I made few friends who I can count within one palm

I don't know what they find in me

But they know how to calm me down

And keep me in line.

When one of my close friend graduated

My finals where high on

And I totally lost it

All I could hear was clattering, clamoring, slurring, scolding

Hammering, complaining, grumping, rattling

A wretched hell broke in my life

That all I wished was break open my grey matter

And re-set

For better functioning

Maybe an upgraded version

With better options and usability

But nothing changed.

I wanted death which was only reasonable

Matter of fact, literally nothing was in my hands

I couldn't put myself back together

That's when addiction kicked in

BTS-ROCK-WATTPAD

I wish it was drugs that I addicted but alas

Nothing made sense

I was taken to counseling by one of the very caring mademoiselle

Etizolam helped me to keep me sane for time being

Yes I was diagnosed with anxiety

Counseling helped me set my thoughts in right place

That towards my parents I only held duty

Nothing else binds me to them

Nothing more or less

I'm a complete individual

No more a parasite suckling onto bosom

And I'm going to live my life

But I'm not going to rest in peace until I seek revenge.

When past school friends try to contact me

I'm hesitant

They comment saying why I am conceited and not joining into bigger picture of fun

But these bastards have the nerve to hit on me

When all they did was mock on my face

Forget about looking at their face, just hearing their name makes me convulse

My first instinct is to stab you to death

And stare at your eyes when you take your last breath

That's what I want to do to all these narcissistic assholes

Yet I didn't dare to point it out to them

Though took the liberty to judge me on my replies for their texts

I say – fuck you!

So the plot to revenge towards my begotten ones

I stopped studying for my finals