It's Always Been Him (BTS Jungkook x Reader)

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People got used to me and Jungkook, and soon we were just another couple - much to my relief. I'd had strangers come up to me with threats, or glaring at me from a distance; all of his fangirls, of course. But I just ignored them and carried on being a happy couple with Jungkook. By then, I knew he'd definitely changed, he must've, but I was still reluctant to even think about having sex with him.

Not only was I a virgin, but I hoped he wouldn't just drop me after. I knew he wouldn't, but still. There's always been that slight bit of doubt that I wish I didn't have, but it was there. I hoped I could get to a point with him where I didn't have that voice in the back of my head saying I was wrong, that he would cheat on me with other girls. Leave me. I knew I would eventually, but I just wished I could get there faster.

I was sitting with Maya on a table in the canteen when Jungkook came over and sat next to me. It was a table for eight, and Hoseok, Namjoon, Yoongi and Taehyung took up all but one seat.

I look a little surprised to see them. Jungkook squeezed my hand, kissing my cheek. "Hey baby." I smiled, looking at the rest of them. They were chatting between themselves, not really paying much attention to anyone else. I'd met them all before, since Jimin used to have them over often before they got swamped with schoolwork. Daesuk came and took up the last seat a few minutes later and started flirting with Maya, keeping her occupied.

I turned to Jungkook and held his hand.

"What brings you by?" He shrugged.

"I guess the guys knew I missed you." I smiled sweetly and Hobi winked and gave me a thumbs up. I chuckled and kissed Jungkook quickly. I had my soft scarf around my neck, light traces of snow outside. It was really cold now, coming towards the end of November. I wore a cosy coat but I didn't zip it up.

We all chatted for a bit, conversing as group. Yoongi roasted Jungkook, and we all started laughing our heads off. Jungkook blushed out of embarrassment, but laughed too. I'd forgotten how savage they could be with each other.

Soon enough though, our lunch break was over, so we all parted ways. Taehyung and Jungkook had English now, but I had German, so we were going to the same block. Maya had French, so she accompanied us too. Once we got to his class, I leaned in and kissed him. He stopped me from pulling away, and pushed the kiss deeper. I smiled against him lips, barely managing to free myself.

"Hey hey, you're killing some of the girls around us." I whispered. He whispered back in my ear.

"Then let them die." He pulled me in again for a passionate kiss. He sounded really sadistic when he said that, but the undertone was sweet. Eventually he let me go, winking at me as I disappeared around the corner. I walked with Maya until she got to her class too, and said goodbye.

"You two are so cute!" She squealed as she shut the door behind her, and I was left alone in the nearly deserted corridor. I was the last one into my German class, and I cursed Jungkook for making me late. I didn't really regret it though, it was a good kiss.

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I met up with Hoseok after school, going back to his place for a change. We were nearing our deadline for the project, but we were almost done anyways. I'd done some more composing today, so I had my laptop in my bag with me ready to transfer. He got out his keys and unlocked the door to his house. He held the door for me and I thanked him as I looked around a bit.

His house was quite big, and really nice. It was cosy, and he took me into the living room to practice. He offered me a drink but I politely declined as I sat on his couch. It was soft and comfy, and made me want to sleep. Instead, I pulled out my laptop as he pushed all the furniture to the edges of the room. I quickly transferred my written work onto the computer while he made himself tea, and soon he was dancing away to my melody.

I was proud of our project, and had a feeling we were gonna get high marks. At least he would anyways - his dancing was impeccable.

We- well he- took a break after about half an hour, plopping onto the couch besides me. He gazed at me with a look I couldn't decipher, but switched his focus when I caught him staring.

"What?" I chuckled lightly. He shook his head, smiling.

"Nothing." I poked his arm.

"Aw come on, tell me." He laughed, not meeting my gaze.

"You're just really pretty." Oh. I paused. Oh.

"Oh uh, thanks? Aha." I fiddled with my hands awkwardly. "Sorry, not very good taking compliments." He chuckled, waving it off. We fell into an awkward silence. Wonderful. "So uhm, what-" I turned to look at him but was greeting with a soft kiss. I pulled away almost instantly. "Woah now!" He blushed and stood up.

"Sorry sorry, that- uhm- ignore that- forget it- ahh-" I was stunned.

"I don't think I can forget it that easily. Hoseok!" I stopped him from running out the door. "Don't go you idiot. Can you explain what just happened?" I wasn't angry, more curious and awkward about it. He struggled to get the words out as he stuttered, looking pretty much any where but at me.

"I-uhm- just forget it- it was a mistake- I didn't mean to- uhmm-" I put my hands on his shoulder to steady him. His breathing was erratic, and I had a feeling his heart was the same.

"Woah, take a deep breath. Are you okay? I think you lost it." I smiled a little, trying to lighten the mood. He did as I said and calmed down a little.

"Sorry.. I just.. Ugh it's fine. Just forget it." He tried to walk away again, but my hands kept him there.

"Dude." He finally looked at me in the eyes.

"Okay.. I kinda like you." I hesitated.

"Like .. Like-like?" He nodded awkwardly, fiddling with the hem of his shirt.

"But you're dating Jungkook and I know you don't like me back anyway.. I shouldn't have kissed you I'm sorry.." I shrugged.

"Eh it's fine." I returned to the couch, trying to be as casual as possible. I know it was hard to be rejected, so I didn't want to make it awkward too. Inside I was freaking out, but outside I was cool as a cucumber. He sat on the edge of his coffee table.

"It is?" He gulped.

"Yeah. I mean it's another kiss I can add to my collection I guess." I chuckled lightly, trying to keep it cool.

"Aha, yeah I guess." He continued fiddling with the hem of his shirt.

"I mean, you said you know I don't feel the same way. Sorry 'bout that." I kept a smile on my face, despite the situation. "But hey, you're an attractive guy that tons of girls fangirl over literally every day. And one day you're gonna find one girl in that crowd that ain't just trying to get close enough to smell you, or see how.. big you are. I don't know." I leaned back against the couch, slouching. "She'll pop up, you'll pluck her out of the crowd and take her on a date, you'll both fall madly in love, and you'll marry the chick and have a bunch of little sunshines running around the house. And while I respect and like you, Hobi, I'm just not that girl."

I smiled at him and gave him a quick hug. "But hey, you're a good kisser man. Keep at it." I winked at him as I put my laptop in my bag and slid it on my back. "I'd better go though. Mama's ordering us a takeaway tonight, can't wait!" I grinned at him as I left. I hope that went okay. I also hoped he didn't tell Jungkook about that, I wasn't going to. I didn't want him to get jealous, or think anything of it.

At least not until we'd finished the project.

I didn't lie to him though, he was a good kisser. Even though it was a one sided, quick kiss.

Ah well.

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- Aly x