Bizzle, Rick And I (Justin Bieber)

Final Goodbye

We rush Rick at the nearest hospital. That was fast, I am panicking, screaming, crying. I didn't mind Bizzle alot but he's still shocked and silent.

We're outside the emergency room, waiting for the doctor to come out. I'm nervous, my heart won't relax, my mind is in chaos. I don't know what to do. What if he- it's so hard to think of it but what if he'd be gone? I dont know how would I handle that. I'm walking back and forth and I notice Bizzle never said a word since we came here. If I'm this worried for Rick, what more to Bizzle that his own brother,his twin? I sit next beside him, he's staring blankly at the ground. I tapped his should and gave him a hug.

"Don't worry Bizzle, he's going to be okay." I told him. I'm still scared of what would happen next but I'm still hoping for something good, even if it's so hard to think positively.

"You choose him." His voice was deep and emotionless. It made me move an inch away from him, I was surprised that he said that. I feel mad.

"Aren't you concern of your brother? After all what happened to him, that is all what you think about? How could you be so selfish?"

He slowly looked at me, his eyes were tearing up but his face remained expressionless.

"I'm selfish? Okay, but it's you what I want Apple." His tears fell. He looked away. "Rick got everything I wanted. My family loves him more than me. Everything I do, he does it better. All I want right now is you, I don't even care about the past, everything he took away from me doesn't matter anymore. Nothing from the past can't compare how much I wanted you, even all of it was combined." My anger turned to pity. I feel bad for what I've said. I looked away because I don't want to see his reaction to the next thing I would say.

"I wanted Rick, Bizzle. It's always been him." My heart reacted to what I've said, it's painful and I know it's more painful for him. "I'm sorry."

The doctor went out. I grew more and more nervous. The doctor seems not happy and it scares me.

"I'm sorry.." The doctor started. "Justin Bieber has a brain cance-"

"NO!" I screamed. "That's not true!" My tears fell uncontrollably. I ran to see Rick and left the doctor with Bizzle. He looks so pale and weak. I lean closer and hug him.

"The doctor told me you have a brain cancer, I don't believe him, I don't!" I started acting so weird. I don't want to lose Rick. I don't know how would I live without him. I'm trying to believe that this is some kind of joke and i'm not buying it.

"Apple.." He started. I can see he is in pain but he's trying to endure it. "I have a stage 4 brain cancer...and I'm dying."

I'm speechless. I wanted to cry out loud but no words came out of my mouth. My tears keep flowing.

"Stop fooling around Rick, this isn't funny." My voice cracked. I'm still trying to convince myself that everything is not true.

"My grandpa died from brain cancer too and I think I inherited this from him." I'm sobbing, he would wipe my tears and look away. I keep my eyes on him. "When I knew you're going to come here, I decided to follow you and spend my remaining time with you and I'm glad Bizzle followed. I enjoyed so much. When we're in the hotel, every night my head aches, I was awake and you and Bizzle were sleeping. But you know what, when I see you sleeping peacefully, it lessens the pain I feel." He stopped to look at me. "I know you two will get along in time." He means Bizzle.

"Why didn't you tell me about this?!"

"I would hurt you." Like you don't hurt me. "And everything would not be normal if I tell you. Atleast we had fun. I would bring those memories in heaven." He smiled as if he's not dying.

"Rick, please tell me you're gonna be with me forever. Just please."

"My doctor told me I only have 1 week left.. 7 days ago."

My whole body stopped for a second. I was begging him to lie from me but stabbed me with the truth.

"And I'm not staying any longer.." he bowed his head. I started to cry out loud and scream no. This isn't real, this isn't happening. I'm still waiting for me to wake up from this bad dream but the pain is so real.

"Here.. take this." He handed me a cd. "That's the song I wrote for you. The title is Be Alright. I hope you'll listen to it when you're sad and make you feel better." I made loud sobs, I couldn't control myself. I can't believe this, I really can't.

"Apple..." Someone hugged me from behind, it's Bizzle and I'm holding Rick's hand so tight.

"Bizzle, remember everything I told you, please. Promise to always take good care of her. I would love to spend the rest of my life with her but I couldn't, would you please do it for me?"

"I promise, and that's what I wanted to do, brother."

"Thank you."

"Apple.. I hope you would learn to love my brother. I'm sorry if I can't make it. I love you." I cried even louder.

"Don't say that, you'll be with me forever." He grabbed my hand and kissed it.

"RICK PLEASE. STAY."

His grip of my hand is starting to loose. His eyes are slowly shutting.

*beeeeeep!*

I screamed so loud and I can't even hear myself.

The love of my life is gone.