My close friend

Mutual Feelings

"I KNEW IT!! I knew it! I knew it! I knew it! That boy was in love with you all this time! Oh my God, please do not play the clueless one and make it hard for him, you stupid goldfish!"

"Me...?", I simply said.

He looked down and nodded shyly. He kept staring at his already empty plate, unable to overcome his shyness and look at me. Truthfully, he was SO cute that, if we were at his house right now, I would have jumped on him and cuddled him all night! However, there was not an ounce of fear or anxiety on his face; it was as if he was certain that he would not be rejected.

As for me, my mind was swarming with memories. I got his message, loud and clear; it was just that I did not know how to respond. No, it was more like I did not know how to reciprocate his feeling. I liked Chanyeol, but it was only then that I realised how much I did. As I mentioned before, I trusted him, as much as I trusted my parents. And I knew he did so too; I have been invited countless times at his place; I have been at his as much as he has been at mine. And when he showed me his studio for the first time, he confessed that I was special to him. But the idiot person that I was, did not even realise that he gave me a hint of his true feelings about me back then already.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                "You know, I really cherish this place because this is where I spend most of my time, it is like my secret place. I even put a sofa bed in it so that I did not have to bother to go to my room, and personally, this is much more comfortable than my bed, hahaha! And I decided that I would only let special people in this room."  Those were his exact words, and I am not going to be forgetting it soon. And since then, we always went to his studio to play and jam together.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         His parents also are very friendly and welcoming people, even though I have seen his mom more often than I have seen his dad. Chan is as great a cook as his mom, I must also add. She invited me over on special occasions to have dinner with them and even suggested that I should stay over sometimes...! And his dad would always bring something for me when he went abroad for work purposes; I swear they are the sweetest!

"You know, you are special to me too", I managed to let out after that long flashback. "And I... I am sorry that I am only realising my feelings right now. I... I-"

"It's okay. You don't have to rush. This may all seem sudden to you, I understand, truly", he said, looking at me with a compassionate smile. He had stopped blushing. I simply smiled back at him.

......

And now what ? We stayed quiet for only 5 seconds and I was already feeling awkward! I can usually stay quiet with Chanyeol for hours and not feel awkward about it- now that I think about it, he is the only person with whom I can do that...! But given the situation, the more time we spent in silence, the more awkward the situation was going to get, and the faster my heartbeat would get.

"Chan, I don't think I can eat anymore of that", I finally let out. Honestly, I would not have been able to eat another spoonful after what had just happened.

"It's okay. Then shall we go ? I am done too."

I nodded. He summoned the waiter for the bills and after paying up, he helped me with the chair again. And this time, I was the one to make the first move; I grabbed his arm and gave a comforting smile. It was my way of saying that he had nothing to fear and that he should just relax. He responded with a sweet smile. By the way, how in the world am I so calm !? This was the first time I have been asked out!! My heart should have been racing like mad, but it was the exact opposite!! I guess it was due to the fact that I have been around Chanyeol SO much, and also to the fact that he did not make situation more awkward than it should be. If there was something that he was really good at, besides music, it was adapting to his current environment swiftly. He was really an impressive man, to say the least.