My close friend

Decision

Mom was sleeping like a log and Chan had gone back home. Now what should I do ? I guess I would have to surf on the net then, or I could also make music, or I could watch a movie- AH I hate when things don't go the way it was planned, because I do not make second, emergency plans...! I managed to balance those activities and soon, it was bed time. I kept checking on mom from time to time to see if she was okay, but she was out cold! Ohh mom, I pray that all those night shifts come to end! I headed to bed, still feeling bizarre at the idea that I was not fazed by shirtless Chan-

"What now ? Shall we do a little recap on what happened in the afternoon to refresh your memory ? So firstly-"

AAAHHH! Okay, okay! I was trying to sleep! Great! Why do our sub-conscious always do such things!? Why make us recall every damn mistake we did and every embarrassing situation we went though JUST when we had to sleep!?!? Was that our sadistic side letting itself out ? Or was it simply our stupidity ? As if recalling the good things we did, would give us nightmares...!!! Anyway, with all that flashbacks that were trying to pop up in my mind, I managed to fall asleep while thinking about a place that Chanyeol and I could go when he would take me out...!

..............THE NEXT MORNING..........

I woke up early as I had classes today. I got down, greeted mom, had my bath... my daily routine in short, and left for college. As I reached, I looked for Chanyeol who would always wait for me under the tree in the college's courtyard. We would always wait for each there before going to class. We would also have some other friends to join us too, as we would be spending a lot of time in class already; so why go in and sit till classes would start when you can enjoy fresh air outside, right ?

I was scrutinising the whole area and finally found that giant talking to one of our friends. He looked so calm, and carefree, and happy... I really loved to see that expression on his face! On all people's faces rather. The expression they made when they were talking about something that really passionated them, that really gave them happiness and that made them feel alive! 

I finally decided to join them, after realising that I was staring at him...! AGAIN! I was becoming a stalker! 

"Hey guys! What's up ?" I said as I met up with them.
And so, we chatted a bit till it was time for our classes to start.

 In class, I kept thinking about my new relationship with Chanyeol. But I was being attentive in class too! It was just that from time to time, I had to take a break from all this learning, and that was the only thing that came to mind...! Did we... move too quickly ? I mean I understood the fact that we knew each other from way back but...! I know I kept repeating about our friendship being more than a decade long, but I felt that that was not reason enough to move to a kiss THAT quickly! Now that I was thinking about it, he simply took me to dinner, in a fancy restaurant I know. I am not saying that it was something to pay little attention to, on the contrary! I appreciated the thought, honestly. It was his way of dealing with his feelings so I just went with the flow. But I really respected that gesture! And took me to a place that meant a lot for him- okay, he really went all out that day! Oh my God, why was I starting to feel... feel like crying !? 

"Do you realise that he did because he knew you valued your friendship VERY MUCH!? And you ask yourself why your mom was asking him to be patient with you....HUH! What an idiot you are! And an inconsiderate brat on top of that!"

I really felt bad , for him. Because I was too unattentive towards him to see that he had feelings for me, he had to go out of his way and give me hints. Because I was too stupid to realise that I was the reason behind his awkward behaviour at first, he had to deal with it and suppress himself from saying anything. And now that I could feel what he was feeling for me back then, I could not believe that I made him suffer like that! As I mentioned before, this feeling was SO overpowering that if were a sound, it would be like 1 Terra Bel, which would do MUCH more damage that just deafen us! And he held THAT overwhelming feeling deep inside him, and why ? Because some idiot was just too dense to notice that the giant actually loved her!!!!