My close friend

Silence (1)

Many such incidents have happened during the holidays. Many such moments that would make us realise how lucky we were to be alive, how lucky we were to have met each other, how lucky we were to be together. Those moments that would always make life seem so beautiful...! But the troubles we overcame together was what actually united us in the end; it was what made life really worth living...!

That day he cried at the playground made me realise how much he was suffering, alone. Just like everyone else, he had things that he could not talk to his parents about, things that were just not worth talking to them about, things that he feared, that we all feared that they might not understand, things which a friend would understand better, a particular someone. That particular someone. I remember once I saw him crying in his car. He was 12 I think, and he was a rather plump, cute little high school boy. Of course, due to his physical appearance at that time, he had been often bullied, but he was strong and did not give in to the bullies' taunts easily. But sometimes, those same taunts, that he seemed to have ignored on the spot, would pop up in his mind again, haunt him, making him hate himself for what he was, for what he wasn't, for what he lacked. And at that time, as we had been put in different classes, we had distanced ourselves from each other, but just a little; we would always play together during lunch time!! 

He dared not talk to me about it; he preferred handling the situation himself, like a grown-up man. But I always knew that he somehow feared that I would not understand his situation, that I would end up mocking him, just like the others. Hence, he would let out all those frustrations and pain when he was alone, when he felt that there were no eyes on him. However, I was aware of it; I was aware of it all...! It may seem as if I was stalking him, but the way he kept quiet when he was bullied left me with the thought and fear that he might be thinking of something, let's say dangerous for him...! I had kept an eye on him, and stood by his side whenever I could when he was in for bullying sessions. Since that, we became closer, closer than we were at school. We were always seen hanging out with each other. We bunked classes together and had lunch together. And one thing that I liked about us, was our hate for the same persons! He would hate the same person that I did, and for the same reasons! And mocking them together was one of the best memories I have of my high school life!! Not that we no  longer do that though, and an example would be Tisha..!

Anyway,let us come back to our current time. One day, Chanyeol came over to play and we had one of our childish fights. He kept arguing that I would sometimes not think before I opened my mouth, which was true. I acknowledged that fact but he went on to say that I was always talking a lot. In the end, he only wanted to tease me, but I didn't get to know when it turned into a silence challenge...! Basically, we BOTH had to keep quiet and the one who broke the silence first had to do one thing the other asked of the latter. The stake was quite interesting and if I would win, I would be able to make him do anything that I wanted, just like the promise I made, already a month ago ...!! We would thus be somewhat even, but if he happened to win, then I would be in big trouble...!

We were playing 'Call Of Duty' on our Nintendo, while we had already started the game. What a BIG mistake it was to play that game in silence!! And to top it all, we were playing against each other! Each time I spotted him in the bushes, I wanted to shout out of surprise and fear! I could NEVER play a game quietly; I always had to shout about something, no matter how petty it was! I felt that it would help ease the pressure and frustration. I was hiding behind a wall in some ruins, waiting for him to come out of his hiding place and attack me. I aimed the gun at all the objects surrounding me while slowly turning around when he just appeared in front of me! OH MY GOD, DAMN IT WAS DIFFICULT TO HOLD IN THAT SHOUT!!!!!!! While I was too busy to hold in my emotions, he killed instantaneously. AAHHRRGGGG!!!  Thankfully though, I was not the only one having some troubles in keeping quiet; he was trying really hard not to laugh at me and at my shocked and disgusted expression. And seeing him almost chocking on his inner laughter made me want to laugh too...!