They dont know about us

Chapter 31

Nialls POV

I kissed him

And I kept kissing him but he wouldn't let me in. He pulled away and stared at me, Lakshmi was looking at me like I was a monster.

"Niall, you need to leave", She said calmly not giving anything away in her voice. I nodded at walked out of the door. I felt so disgusted with myself for what I did. It all came flooding back to me, my time at school. I was only experimenting but no one saw it that way. Small towns don't accept people being different, I worked so hard to block it all out of my head but this brought it back .

Zayn would never look at me the same and I lost my best friend, the person who understood me most. I had hit on my best friend and her husband in the same day. It was shameless and I hated myself for it.

I couldn't go home and face Liberty, I didn't know how to end things with her and I couldn't face the rest of the boys. I only had one choice, I was going to apologise and explain myself. It was the only way forward, I needed someone to talk to and Lakshmi was the only one who would listen.

I walked back to the house and was about to knock when I heard the fight going on inside.

"What do you want me to do Zayn?" Lakshmi shouted loudly.

"I want you to stay away from him", Zayn replied raising his voice above hers, he sighed heavily and breathed heavily. He was angry.

"Why? He doesn't love me, he loved you. So what do I have to do with it? it's between you two to sort it out", she said getting more laboured with each sentence.

"He is not gay, don't you understand. He's using it to get closer to you", Zayn said calmly. I inhaled quickly, it was like a dagger to know what Zayn thought of me.

"No he's not he's trying to..", she stopped speaking and there was a pause, "come in Niall", she said through the door.

I walked in slowly, my head looking down and waiting for someone to yell or scream or call me a queer. But nothing happened.

"You two better resolve this soon or I swear I will make my death come even sooner than it's coming", I looked in her eyes and I knew she was serious. She had nothing to lose.

She took both sets of keys and walked out of the door and locked it from the outside and said, "I don't care what happens in here, in coming back tomorrow morning and everything better be solved".

I looked into Zayn's eyes and what I saw excited me.

A/N

So I know I haven't written in ages but here is the chapter. what happens next might be slightly controversial but yup that's all for now .