Xena's Story: A DBZ Fanfic

A Big Brother...

It was probably a couple hours of me crying silently to myself when I hear someone knock on my door.

"Xena, it's Gohan...can you open the door?"

"Go away, I don't want to talk to anyone right now." I said, ignoring him and keeping my back towards the locked door.

"Xena, please unlock the door. I understand that you are upset, but locking yourself away in your room isn't going to help...it will only build up." He said as I hear the nod jiggle some as he tried to open it.

"Fine..." I mutter as I roll of the bed and unlock the door before running back over and curling up again, still keeping my back to him.

Gohan doesn't say anything as I hear his heavy footsteps grow closer to the bed and it creaking slightly as he sat down.

"What do you want? Everyone send to you to finally tell my crazy ass to get out, or maybe you just came to give me pity and try to get me to start being nice to Goku?" I asked, keeping my back turned to him so he did see how red and puppy my eyes were...the last thing I wanted was pity because I was crying.

"Neither actually, I simply wanted to check on you cause I figured after all that's happened today you would be upset. Thought maybe you would wanna talk about it." He said, his voice soft and calm.

"And how do I know you actual give two shits? For all I know all this could just be some cruel prank..." I said, wrapping my arms around myself and tried to keep my voice steady.

"Looks like your friend Mina was right...you aren't as cold and heartless as you make yourself out to be."

"Yea? And what makes you think that? In case you forgot I was born and raised to kill and destroy on command, that's all I've known. Peace and love...are foreign things to me, guess you can say I don't understand them at all." I said, sighing as I still don't dare look at him.

"So what's that matter? Dad and Vegeta were the same way, born and raised to kill and take over planets...and look how they turned out."

"Yea, and they had an environment that apparently breeds compassion and love that changed them...I didn't have that and I doubt staying here will change the way I am anyway."

"Vegeta was completely evil for far longer than you have, and he's doing just fine in a peaceful timeline."

"That's different...no one would understand even if I tried to explain it to them. That's why I'm better off on my own in my messed up timeline."

"People...dad, Bulma, Goten, even me...we can't understand if you don't let us. We can only understand as much as you let us." Gohan said, standing up and walking around the bed to kneel down in front of me. "I bet you if you let me, I can understand a lot better than you can give me credit for." He said with a soft smile.

"Why do you care...why do any of you care about me? I'm not even supposed to be here...shouldn't have even been born to begin with." I asked, muttering the last part to myself and hopping he didn't hear me.

"Because you are family, even if you are from a different timeline you are still by all technicalities my little sister...that and I'm sure everyone is wanting to believe Mina when she says you are a nice, loving person." He said like it was obvious.

"How do you know she's said that about me? She never once said that while I was out there." I said, confused.

"Once you took off Mina told us about everything that happened at the time nest...she said you are all mush hidden behind a thick outer shell. She said you are a caring and kind person to those that can manage to get through that shell." He said, sitting on the bed next to me as I sat up and scooted back against the headboard.

"Only thing she got right about that is the thick outer shell, but I'm not all mush inside like she says...only thing hiding within that shell is a empty void." I place my hand over my heart and sigh, "like I said before, the only things I know are death and destruction. Love, compassion, trust...the ability to feel most other emotions...are things I don't understand, I grew up in a timeline completely voids of these things your timeline seems to thrive on."

"I don't know, those hugs and smiles you gave Mina seemed truly genuine to me. I'm starting to think you can feel everything you said you can't, but just don't understand that's what those things are." He said, still smiling at me, "I'm betting that's what Elder Kai wants you to truly understand, not so much you actually changing."

"I'm sure he would be happy if I changed though...I tend to be a bit of a bitch." I said with a small, mocking laugh to myself.

"I don't know if anyone else gets it, but I do. By what I've been told of how you grew up, acting the way you do seems natural. I'm sure you will lighten up once you get used to this timeline." He said, standing up, "Come on, let's head back downstairs with everyone else. I'm sure they are worried that you stormed off."

"I don't think any of them actually care..." I mumbled, not moving from my spot.

"And I don't think you are willing to let them in and try."

"...Fine." I stand up only for Gohan to pull me into a hug. "Hey! Get off!"

"You've been acting depressed since you got here...thought you might need a hug." He said, still not letting go.

"I don't need a stupid hug, I'm perfectly fine." I try and push against him to get loose but he doesnt let go.

"Yea, that's why you were crying. You can't fool me Xena, I could tell you were crying." He said, patting me on the head, "might as well get used to it, I highly doubt this will be the only time you get a hug from one of us. Now let's head down with everyone else." He said as he lets go of me with one more pat on the head before walking towards my door.

'I've only been here a couple days and this is the first time I've actually talked to him, yet Gohan can read me like a book...is that what having a caring big brother is like?' I shake my head trying to lose that thought. "What was that...I don't need to start getting attached to people here. He's just another Gohan in another timeline." I said, trying to reassure and remind myself. "I don't belong here and I don't need anyones help."

I sigh as I check in the mirror to make sure all lingering signs of the face I was crying were gone before heading downstairs after Gohan.