Love Me

32. Confess

I want to tell him how much he means to me, that I really love him but I'm afraid to confess my feelings to him.

Sumi realized she was thinking of Hoseok, and she began to wonder how long he'd been on her mind. But then it occurred to her.
Since she met him, he never left.

Sumi unlocks her phone and searches for solutions online. She desperately looks for a way to let her husband know about her love.
It might be easy for other people but this is a new feeling to Sumi.
Something she never felt before and she doesn't have anyone to guide her.

After looking up some articles, she decides to prepare a good dinner for her husband and confess her love with some flowers.

A small smile dances on her face while the thought of Hoseok lingered on her mind.
Just thinking about him makes her heart feel fuzzy. The unexplainable feeling in her stomach leaves her happy.

Your heart knows things that your mind can't explain.

"The secret ingredient is love" Sumi smiles at her food.

She looks at the clock and realize that Hoseok's going to be home soon.

Even though she's scared, she decides to go out and buy some flowers at the nearby store.

This is the first time Sumi has ever gone out alone and the anxiety is killing her.
She holds onto her small squishy toy tightly that Hoseok gifted her as it helps her to get rid of stress.

Sumi breathes heavily and takes small steps on the dark alley, hoping she wouldn't see any people.

Meanwhile, Hoseok walks towards his house from the bus stop. His car was troubled so he had to leave it at his office.
Tired, Hoseok walks slowly, passing by all the small stores filled with noisy people.

He flinches when he felt an arm around his. Hoseok looks beside him to see Younha smiling widely at him.

He sighs softly and tries to push her hand away but it only gets tighter.

"Let's walk home together" she pouts and acts cute, making Hoseok uncomfortable.

He's already tired from work and her actions are making him more irritated.

"Hoseok-ahh" she cooes and rests her head on him.

"Let's date" she says and Hoseok pushes her away immediately.

He gives her a dirty look and starts walking away but she grabs his wrist tightly and tiptoe, trying to kiss him.

Hoseok looks back in surprise but his eyes widen when he sees Sumi behind Younha, with her teary eyes.

"Su--sum"

Sumi drops her plushie on the ground and runs away from them.
She doesn't know where she's going but she can't stop.
Seeing her husband's face inches away from another girl broke her heart into pieces.

"Hoseok.." Younha whispers and still doesn't let go of his hand even when he's trying to push her.

He raises his hand, ready to slap her face but stops and fists the air in frustration.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING?!" He screams and she looks at him shocked, tears blurring her eyesight.

Hoseok groans and tugs on his hair.

"I--I like you"

"Like? Why the fuck do you like a married man for gods sake. DO YOU KNOW HOW OLD AM I?!l"

She's scared to look at him. Younha never saw him this angry before and so she starts crying.

Hoseok doesn't know what to do. Only the picture of Sumi crying before him is on his mind.

She must be scared to be alone in this darkness. I need to find her and tell her what happened. I need to find her quickly.

He snaps out of it when he sees Younha staring at him.

"Younha, you're a good girl and you are still young. This is just infatuation. Trust me, you'll find someone that truly loves you. Please, leave me alone" Hoseok sighs and walks away quickly to find Sumi.

Hoseok looks around all the department stores, pet shops, the neighborhood park, everywhere. But she's nowhere to be found.
The tension in him increases as the minutes pass by.

Sumi keeps running all over the unknown streets, not caring about the darkness.
She tells herself not to cry but she can't help it,
tears won't stop flowing.

Sumi collapses on the dead end of the alley and cries loudly.
She never cried this loudly before, except for when she cries in the shower.

She panics when a couple of guys approach her and taps on her shoulder.
This is the first time she's with stranger guys this close and the fact that she's alone makes her more frightened.

Sumi takes a step back while clutching onto her dress and soft gasps leaves her throat.

"SUMI" Hoseok screams, running towards her.

"Stay away" he glares at the men before her.

"We're just trying to hel--" they walk away.

Hoseok tries to touch her but Sumi moves away from his hand. Her chest heaves up and down.

"Sumi, I..." he stops when she starts crying again.

Seeing her cry because of him breaks his heart. He feels like dying for making her sad.
She doesn't deserve this, so does he.

Sumi gulps and grabs his collar tightly, still sobbing.

He can feel her hands shivering.

"I....I love you" she confesses before snuggling her face into his chest.

Hoseok eyes widen and his heartbeat fastens.
Sumi's holding him, she loves him.

He can't believe if this is real or not.
But if this is a dream, he doesn't want to wake up.

She tugs on his shirt and stays in his embrace, sobbing softly.
Hoseok wraps his arms around her body and hugs her tighter.

I'm only yours Sumi...