I used to think I mattered,
In a group of people i called friends,
Till I moved away and I relialised,
That it was all a game of pretend
And somehow I didn't know the rules,
Cause I was foolish enough to believe it was true,
When everyone else was playing so well,
Then advanced to the next level leaving me in the blue
I actually believed that someone could care
For someone like me when I should have known,
That I only exist when I'm needed,
That I'm just a helpline with no helpline of my own
You make jokes on me and I laugh along,
Cause you know I like your company,
But not when you talk about me behind my back,
With other people whom you accompany
And I forgive you everytime,
Cause I don't want our 'friendship' to end,
Even when my messages you ignore,
Cause you have better ways of your time to spend
I'm tired of being a fallback option,
I'm tired of feeling alone in crowds,
I'm tired of being used for their benefit,
And still smiling like I'm proud
But this is not what hurts me,
Oh no it's not at all that's wrong,
Cause it might've been a game to them,
But for me it was true all along
The worst part is that they no longer care,
But I still do and I always will I never won't,
Cause even though people always change,
It's so true that memories just don't
I'll still always be here whenever they need,
Smiling like the idiot they know,
Cause even after all this time,
Their memories I just can't let go
