They say that love is forever

Chapter 14

AMANDA'S POV:

**1 week later*

It's been a week since dad passed away and the boys came back but Ashton hasn't seen me, I mean, I'm a mess, I've been crying and not eating and sleeping and it hurts. I've checked twitter but the words on their hurt so much people are hating and saying things like '#killyourselfAmanda no one loves you, here are the pills and the razors' and 'no one will miss you'. I was getting called ugly and useless and other names but to be honest they hurt a lot every word sunk in but just then I heard a knock at the door before I wiped my eyes and I hear Lucy's voice.

"Hey you ok?" She asked as I shook my head before she hugged me.

"Aw babe I'm sorry and Ash is worried about you." She said and no I haven't told her about the hate but I didn't want Ashton to see me like this, I was a mess.

"Ok I'll talk to him." I said as she nodded and stood up.

"Well I'm going to the shops you wanna come?" She asked and I nodded I mean I had to leave my bed some time. After we both were up we walked to my car and I texted Ash while she drove us to the shops.

-'hey I'm sorry I haven't spoken to you in ages it's just a lot has happened'

-'it's alright how r u?'

-'alright I guess how was ur concert?'

-'awesome but I missed you x'

-'I missed you too x'

Just then we pulled up at the shops and we hopped out before we walked in and there was the girl from hell.

"Oh look at you are you trying to turn anorexic for attention?" She asked as I shook my head before I kept walking and Lucy kept shopping.

"I swear you are, oh and I heard you're dating Ashton Irwin but it's a joke right how much did you pay him?" She asked as I kept walking.

"It's not a joke I didn't pay him anything." I replied.

"Well just so you know he could do so much better than you to be honest I don't know why he is wasting his time on some far, stupid wreak like you." She said just as Lucy came up.

"Oh bitch you shut it or i will make that face into trash. Oh wait, it already is." Lucy said as she pulled my arm and we walked out as she said something that I didn't catch as we hopped in the car and Lucy drove off home.

"Did she say anything?" Lucy asked.

"No and if she did I ignored her." I lied I mean she was right I was a wreck.

"Ok well I got to drop you off at ours and go pick up the boys because they are coming over for a sleepover." Lucy said as I nodded before she pulled up at our drive way and I walked up to the door before she drove off and I walked inside. I grabbed a pen and paper. I couldn't take it anymore I couldn't take my dad dieing, the hate and the bulling it was getting to much so I started writing.

Dear Ashton,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm not good enough and I'm not some beautiful model or girl with no problems and a wreak. You are probably wondering why I'm writing you this letter well it's because my dad died and it was right in front of me and it hurt so much I yelled at the doctors and I cried also because I've been getting a lot of hate on twitter lately telling me to kill myself and that I'm not worth it and to be honest I believe it. You know I will never know why you fell for a girl like me with so many problems and such a dark life but it will confuse me for my whole life because you could have any girl you wanted and you chose me why? I'm sorry I really am I tried staying strong but it's too hard I can't handle all this pain and I thought before things get to complicated and you fall in love with me and we make memorise that I would leave so you could find a more beautiful girl who has nothing wrong with her and a happy past. You know when I first met you at the concert in person it was the best day of my life I loved spending every second of every minute of every day with you and I fell in love with you, everyday and to be honest I love you Ashton Fletcher Irwin but every good thing has to come to an end and I guess my end is an early end. I'm sorry I put you through this.
Sincerely Amanda x

After I wrote the note I folded the paper and put in on the kitchen bench before I wiped my tears. I grabbed Lucy's car keys and walk to her car as I drove away from my apartment as all the memories came into my head and the tears started falling.

ASHTON'S POV:

We pulled up at their apartment but Lucy's car wasn't there which started a bad feeling in my stomach as we all went inside and Lucy shouted for Amanda but their was no response before Lucy found a note and gave it to me as I began to read it.

Dear Ashton,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm not good enough and I'm not some beautiful model or girl with no problems and a wreak. You are probably wondering why I'm writing you this letter well it's because my dad died and it was right in front of me and it hurt so much I yelled at the doctors and I cried also because I've been getting a lot of hate on twitter lately telling me to kill myself and that I'm not worth it and to be honest I believe it. You know I will never know why you fell for a girl like me with so many problems and such a dark life but it will confuse me for my whole life because you could have any girl you wanted and you chose me why? I'm sorry I really am I tried staying strong but it's too hard I can't handle all this pain and I thought before things get to complicated and you fall in love with me and we make memorise that I would leave so you could find a more beautiful girl who has nothing wrong with her and a happy past. You know when I first met you at the concert in person it was the best day of my life I loved spending every second of every minute of every day with you and I fell in love with you but by but everyday and to be honest I love you Ashton Fletcher Irwin but every good thing has to come to an end and I guess my end is an early end. I'm sorry I put you thro this.
Sincerely Amanda x

When I finished Lucy had tears in her eyes as she handed me her keys.

"GO FIND AMANDA SHE'S GONE TO KILL HERSELF!!" She yelled at me as I nodded and ran to the car before I drove off trying to find her. She was beautiful and she was good enough for me, I mean, I do love her, I love her more than I should. I want to help her through this because I was bullied when I was younger but I don't want her to leave me she means so much to me.

She can't leave.

Not now.

Not yet.

Not ever. Just then I saw Lucy's car and I parked behind it before I hopped out and ran to see Amanda start to walk across the road before my heart sunk.

"AMANDA!" I shouted from the top of my lungs before it happened.

The car hit her.

I ran as fast as I could before I saw her body lying their and the tears started to flood my eyes as I ran to her and lifted her head and I saw the scratches everywhere and blood everywhere it hurt.

"Come on babe wake up don't leave me please I need you." I said as I kissed her head.

"Please don't leave me." I said before the driver came out and I looked up with tears falling down my face.

"DONT JUST FUCKING STAND THERE CALL AN AMBULANCE!" I yelled still crying as he quickly got his phone out and started talking as I looked at her body.

"Come on babe I love you." I said as I saw people start to gather around and I pulled her closer.

"I need you." I said as people moved when the ambulance came and they took her in a stretcher and I hopped in and sat next to her while the ambulance lady typed somethings and I looked at my hands to see blood covering them.

"Are you her boyfriend?" The lady asked as I nodded.

"I'm sorry" she said as I nodded before I looked at her. When we reached the hospital we went into emergency and they took her into a room while I got cleaned up. I can't believe people can do this to someone it's not right. I just want her to be alright.

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