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Hardships

For the past two days, my life hasn't been the best. I have cried for both of these days. Today, and yesterday. My eyes hurt this morning from crying the other night, and I only told one friend, and only because she pestered me. I'm not good at talking about my feelings, and I didn't even tell her why, and I won't be telling anyone exactly why. Let me just say that my personal life is way more complicated then what you may think. Family problems, school problems, and just plain old life problems. And inner me problems as well.

If you say that I'm going through nothing compared to you, come on. People have different tolerance levels, plus I'm not going into details. I have a pretty high tolerance level, but it doesn't mean I'm not hurting in some way because of these hardships. And the hardships I go through are more complex, and hard to go through then you may think. I don't feel comfortable sharing them, that's why I go to counseling.

If you say that others have it worse, so I shouldn't cry, does that mean because others have it better, I laugh? That's basically what the first statement was, it's just the level of tolerance, and how well you can cope with things, and let emotions out.

Thanks for reading. I was finally able to relax tonight with a nice car ride, and conversation with my mom.

One last thing. For all those who are younger then me, things will get harder for you as you grow up. I am only a teen, and I know as I get older things may get harder, but 8th grade, my grade, this year, was the hardest year for me. Many bad things happened this year, and only a few actually got solved. I'm still working to solve some problems, and I know I can do them, no matter how long it takes.

I would love your guy's support, and just don't worry. I did grasp control of my life for a bit, and I do lose that grasp, but with time, patience, and ALL of my family (which includes friends) to do it. All I need is support. I want to take the reigns of my own life with as little help as possible. So I don't want my friends to worry, and try to help grab the reigns(I really hope I'm spelling that right). Please, don't help me grab them by grabbing for them yourselves. Just push me forwards with your support. Thank you.