It Started Out With A Kiss || taekook ff

Chapter Twenty-Four

TRIGGER WARNING. This chapter contains scrnarios that may be triggering to some readers.

Taehyung lay on his bed, shaking. He was having an internal battle with himself. He had just woken up in a sweat from the usual nightmare, the one where he falls down the stairs and the dad abuses him after.

Why am I so worthless?
       
                                          You aren't.

But I am. Nobody cares about me.

                       Jungkook cares. Think  
of the kiss he gave you. He wouldn't have given you such a kiss if he didn't care.

He's the only one that cares then. I matter to only one person on this planet.

                        But you mean a lot to him. Think of how he would feel if you left him by himself after he just started to accept himself and his feelings for you.

You're right. He would, I think, be devastated. Or, I would hope.

Taehyung groaned as he got out of bed. He walked into his bathroom and opened the cabinet, taking out his box of fresh razor blades. He took a deep breath before taking a blade out. He ran his fingers along the sharp edge, not pressing hard enough to draw blood. He just wanted to feel the cold metal on his skin once more. It had become a sense of comfort for him, in a way. The blades were always there for him, even when nobody else was. They never left him. He found himself almost missing the smell of blood. It would flood into his brain and provide him with a sense of adrenaline and energy.

He put the blade in the box and carried the box to the kitchen, dropping it into the large trash can, before taking the bag out to the dumpster behind his apartment building. He embraced the cool air on his cheeks while walking back inside, finally starting to feel free from his inner demons that had eaten him from the inside out for so long.

••••••••
(Saturday)

Unknown number: is this taehyung?

                 Taehyung: who is asking?

Unknown: this is sehun.

                  Taehyung: oh, hi sehun. Yes it's me.

Sehun: cool. Um, we need to finish our project thingy so are you free tomorrow afternoon around 2 pm?

                  Taehyung: yep. Where are we going to meet?

Sehun: public library downtown?

                   Taehyung: sure. See you then.

Taehyung rolled his eyes. He had honestly forgotten about the stupid project. He decided to text Jungkook to see if he wanted to grab lunch before headed over to the library tomorrow.

Taehyung: hey babe💗

                     Jungkook: why hello❤️

Taehyung: I have to meet Sehun tomorrow at 2 at the public library to work on the project.

Taehyung: Did you want to grab lunch with me before I go?

                Jungkook: of course baby

                Jungkook: I can't wait to see you❤️😩

Taehyung: I can't wait to see you either💗