Reddie- (Whole Losers Club)[pov Fanfiction](complete) #1

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*Richie*

I stand there. I don't say a word. I don't move. What do I do? Do I feel sad, angry. I wasn't sure what to do. I collapsed on the floor and started whaling. I threw the chocolates in the fire then the flowers. Eddie looks at me. And I do have to admit it's the most sad I've every seen anyone. He tries to help me up but I push him away. "NEVER LIKED YOU ANYWAYS KASPBRACK!" I yell running. I see his face drop but I don't care.

How could he. I really thought I connected with someone for once. I walk to the grocery store and pick up a pint of ice cream. I pay for it and walk to a clothes store. I buy a new hoodie. I pay five dollars and some tax change. Surprisingly leaving me with a single penny. I put it on. The even  of fresh linen cools me a little. I'm going home, watching judge Judy and eat   ice cream in my brand new warm hoodie. I see the shirt Eddie left  an  put down my ice cream. I cut it up into pieces and throw it in the trash.

I sit back down and hold onto my ice cream. I didn't understand. What was  I doing wrong? I like Eddie I really do but I can't believe he would hurt me like that.. it was cold but I had to distract myself. Who says I can't eat ice cream and  be comfortable, nobody. I put down the ice cream. I finished it all. I was surprised even for me. I throw it out and hug my knees. What song was that? It sounded nice. It reminded me of Eddie. I wanted it.

It would be a therapeutic gesture. It would make me feel so bad wouldn't feel anything anymore. I go down the record story and see Stan. He notices my eyes are red. "What's wrong?" He asks. "Eddie was about kiss Jay..." I say through sniffles. He looks sympathetic. "Hey, hey it's ok." He says. "Whatcha looking for?" He asks. "I don't know the lyrics are- insert lyrics he heard-"  I say. "Vanilla twilight huh?" He asks. I shrug. He finds a small tape and I put it in my walkman. I nod. "I'll pay" he says. I can  hold it in. I hug him. At least someone is being nice to me. He walks me home.

I curl up in a ball and cry silently. My parents are back so I pretended  to be asleep. I didn't want to explain everything  to mom and dad. I hugged me knees. And I didn't wanna be alive. I wanted to pretend that the world didn't exist. Was that too much to ask. I feel a tear  fall to where Eddie was that night. Tomorrow is the last day until prom. Then on Monday well have prom. I throw and catch a baseball on the air. I didn't want  to sleep. So i stayed up. Eddie, cant ever let him go, cant ever keep him close.