Reddie- (Whole Losers Club)[pov Fanfiction](complete) #1

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*Ben*

The way i process things is a bit different than most people. Even though me and Beverly were not dating i felt... well i guess hurt. She  wasn't with me to call mine, that's why i went to the front yard to let out my emotions, didn't want anyone think i was jerk, i mean Mike is a real nice guy, but i wanted Beverly more than anything in this world. She was the  only one who looked though my large body, and really payed attention to my heart and what i always have to say. I guess from now on she  bound to shun my emotions, and that hurts for someone who really feel  like they only have one person they can go to. I'm not into guys at all, and all the other girls want nothing to do with me.

I sit on the bottom step and hug my knees. I breath slowly but heavily. I take long quiet breaths. I don't look up. Then i hear loud music and  yelling coming from a car, the steps are relatively close to the street, so i got egged, and  spoiler alert, i hated it. Bowers. It was good while it lasted, it was bad enough with him back in town.  Eddie and Richie walk over, Eddie it eating a cupcake in a Napkin. "Hey Ben, how ya holdin up?" Richie asks. "To be honest not too well" i say showing him the egg on my face. "Bowers" Eddie says handing me a napkin. They both sit next to me. "What's wrong Ben." They said in a tone that indicated they knew what was wrong, they just wanted confirmation. "Guess I'm pretty jealous of Mike" i say.

"Hey its ok big Ben, things could be worse" Eddie says. "Thanks i guess." I respond. We all go inside, because  it starts to rain. I sit next to the window. Everyone is on the couch but I'm just sitting there. Sometimes the process  of rain is relateable. The clouds get heavy, kinda like some people' hearts, than it gets so heavy that rain comes out, sometimes my heart cant handle anything so i just cry. Everyone cries.

"Hey Ben were playing truth or dare again, you up for it?" Beverly asks.   I  ignore her and keep my eyes outside. I don't turn around. "Ben I'm talking to you" she says. Everyone is quiet. I turn around. "Its not considered talking if the one who your talking to doesn't care enough to listen." I say. She looks the maddest shes ever been. I stand next to the door. "The exit is this way you ( b word ;3 because actually saying it would be a poo poo word ;)" i say pointing to the door. She gets up "b-b-bev come o-" she holds up her finger, cutting off Bill. He elbows me and punches me in the arm. I grunt. She  flips me off with both hands. I slam the door closed and wait for the party to end. The party is taking way too long so I just leave "bye guys, sorry for everything" i say. "No the drama wa-" Eddie elbows Richie and he laughs. I leave and i really do feel bad, but to be honest i cant do anything else but hope that everything will be ok.

(Oml guys I'm so tired but im still standing)