Fixed but Still Cracked| [Kenny x Reader]

Explanation {Part 2}

—Your POV—

Kenny looks at me worried. "That's why I started. But I never went to far. But my first job...."

•—Flashback—•

I wear my costume for the first time and place my bo-staff in my cloak pocket and my extra phone there too. Looking out my window I know tonight is my first job. I feel nervous and scared of what I'm about to do. Tonight I have to find the traitor and end his life. I don't know why this is my first job but I do know that if I don't do it, I'll be the the one to get killed.

Shaking my head to get rid of the thoughts I hear the alarm signaling its time to go. Taking a breath I leave through my window and make my way to town. 'Dew... What should I do?! I don't want to kill this person...' I hear the yawn from Dew that says I woke him up. 'I know it sucks but at least it's a stranger. It would be so much worst if they were someone you know. Plus. Think of it like this. Your cleaning up one human scum that sells drugs to everyone and anyone as long as he doesn't get caught. What better way to do good then get rid of the scum.'

Dew is just trying to make me feel like I was doing something thats good but it doesn't work. I know that taking a life, no matter how horrible they are isn't a good thing.

I pass an alley and see the person I was hunting down. Silently I enter the ally and am treated by the fear in all there stuff back. Turning around slowly I see an old family friend. My eyes widen at the sight of him. So he was the traitor. My old family friend John. He used to visit often and take care of me before we started moving.

"W-who are you?!" His eyes grow hostile with fear and he steps back from me. "I-I'm...." what should I say? What do I do?! 'Just let me handle this.'

'W-what?! What do you mean Dew?!'

Everything fades and I'm created by a (f/c) room. 'Dew?! Dew! What are you doing?!'

•—Time Skip—•

I sat in the corner of the (f/c) room and try to think of things other then my job. 'Kenny has such pretty gold hair.... his ocean blue eyes... how he used to have a gap when we where younger...' He was the thing I thought about to help me. Kenny always made me feel safe and cared for. Suddenly a dizzy feeling over comes me and I realize I'm now back in control.

I'm still in the alleyway but it was different. Blood covered the calls and me. 'Dew!!! What did you do?!' He doesn't respond. He ether even back to sleep or isn't answering me. Ether way this isn't what I wanted to see. I didn't want this to happen.

As I stand there a million thoughts run through my mind as I start to breath faster. Then my thoughts are broken by a blood curdling scream. I turn fast and see a woman drop her purse and run off. Panicking I climb up the alley wall and jump from roof to roof trying to run as far from the crime scene as fast as possible. "Dew what did you make me do?! What did you do?!"

Before I realize I enter my house and am greeted by my parents. They look at me and start smiling. "You completed your first job! Congratulations!" I cover my mouth as I feel my stomach turn. Running past them I enter a bathroom and start to throw up my insides into it. Why?! Why did they praise me? Why did they look so happy?! Did they never care for John at all! Dad told me he was like a brother to him!

I start to breath faster as I feel my parents rub my back gently. "It's going to be fine (y/n)! You'll get used to it as you do more jobs!" I don't want to get used to this!!!! I start to vomit more at the sickening scent of blood. "Let's go make you some (f/f) cake with (f/f) frosting!" After a while when my stomach was to empty to expel anymore, I clean my self up and go into my room.

Slowly I change into my (f/c) pjs and lay in my bed. Tears fall from my eyes at the fact I'll have to live like this. Slowly I fall asleep and open my eyes back in the (f/c) room. "DEW!" I run around and look for the demon. After a while I look up and see him sitting on the ceiling, watching me.

The tears form in my eyes as I see him giving me a look of pity. "What did you do to him?!!!" He falls down and lands on his feet in front of me. "Do you really want to know? Or are you just hoping for me to lie to you?" My eyes widen at his question. Should I know the answer?

We stay in silence as we stare at each other.
"N-no... I don't want the answer..." the tears fall from my eyes as I look at the ground and cry. "Why is this my life now?!" I cover my eyes and let my sobs fill the room. "Sh..." I feel Dew hug me and try to confert me. I wish I could go cry to Kenny but I can't.

I can't get him involve.

•—End Flashback—•

—Kenny's POV—

I watch as her face tears up. Again I failed to see how she was struggling. Leaning over I hug her tightly and lay her face in my chest. "Your not mad at me are you..?" Her voice quivers as I feel her tears. "No. I'm not mad." Once again I failed to see through her mask of smiles and faked happiness.

"You... don't hate me right...?" I hug her tighter. "Never." Her body relaxes a little and I feel her nuzzle her head. "Good... I was always scared that when you found out you would hate me..." Her breathing slows down a little and she falls asleep.

Leaning back I let her lay on top of me like she did when we where watching anime. "Don't worry (y/n)... I'll help you..."