Kenadee's Poems

dawning in your essence

you always stared at her.
always caressing her curves with your ocean eyes,
treating her as your royalty, your rarest flower- your stunning unknown.
always absorbing her essence with no words, just your heart.

you dawned in the essence of her.
she spoke; you listened as if she was music to your ears.
she smiled; you melted like silly putty in her hands.

her essence controlled you.
with her, you spoke from the heart.
your needs, wants and desires
were just faint thoughts you longed for but respected her too much to ask.

your mind was clear,
your confidence was shaken
like an unexpected earthquake;
strong enough for the sun to move.

you fell to pieces when she left.
your mind was blown
all to become remains of her essence and who she was to you.
your heart broke like a window,
tiny little pieces,
ripping,
tearing,
and shredding,
at what was left of you.

that's when you turned to me.
i did not know your intentions,
i was young and innocent and i knew you were just going to waste my time-
but i followed you anyways.

a broken boy is a scary game.
you use me, to feel the list you could never gain the confidence to ask from her.

i know you don't dawn in my essence.

i know i do not wilt your confidence.

and i know i never will.

but what i do know is:
you are the beat to my heart,
the silk to my touch,
the music to my ears,
the smile to my face,
my confidence shaker,
the voice in my head and my heart,
and the reason i will end up
shaken and raked around.

it's a dangerous game-
dawning in your essence.