b r o k e n // LIL XAN

Chapter 21

Shannon's POV:

A few minutes after Stokely disappeared I walked myself out of the restaurant. My heart hurt while I walked to the mall (where my car still was) but I knew I was at fault for the aching. I regretted it but for some reason I couldn't let myself go take everything back.

It was a short walk to the mall. It was pretty silent. I kept checking my phone hoping that a notification would appear from Diego. Maybe one that said,

"Shannon i'm sorry for whatever I did. I miss you. I love you. I need you. Please forgive me. I can't live without you."

But of course, everyone can dream. My eyes read the notification, causing more tears to fall.

588-275-6361: Hey it's Trippie from the mall. Wanna link soon?

If it was a normal day, I would be more then excited. But today wasn't a normal day. I felt mad towards him for giving me false hope. I didn't respond to the text.

My heart was shattered and it felt like everything was my fault. I'm the one that swung at Valarie, in the on that flipped out in Diego, and i'm the one that fucked up my relationship ship.

My car was still parked at the mall so I started my walk back. I walked in silence. Listening to the cars pass by me. I heard a few whistles while walking by restaurants. But no one said anything.

I soon came to up to my car. I was so relieved. I can go home and smoke all this away. I clicked the car keys but heard someone clear their throat behind me. I wasn't startled by them for some reason. I just turned around slowly. No emotions in my body.

It was Trippie. He was standing in front of me with a little frown.

"Hey. I promise I wasn't stalking you," he let out a forced chuckle. "I just saw you in the parking lot and noticed you hadn't seen my text."

yes I had.

"Oh. My phone has been acting up lately sorry. I really have to go though." I needed to end this conversation fast. If I didn't smoke any time soon I would lose it.

"Um okay. Just uh- text me yeah?" He shook his dreads out his face.

I forced a small smile and nodded my head yes. He gave me a small wave before walking away. Honestly I felt bad for blowing him off like that but the only thing on my mind in that moment was weed. I hopped in my car and drove home quick.

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Sometimes I really hate wattpad. I had this whole chapter written out and wattpad just deleted half of it so I tried to re-write some. The only problem is it's 4 am and i'm so exhausted. Ill be updating the book soon also. I promise, don't worry.