b r o k e n // LIL XAN

Chapter 22

Diego's POV:

Her words kept replaying in my head the whole car ride home. "Maybe this was a mistake."

I honestly loved Shannon. Truly. Me and her had been together for such a short time but i've never felt so strong about her as I have any other girl. She was special.

I didn't know where our relationship went downhill. I tried my best. I knew I had fucked up with the texts but honestly I tried everything I could to make up for it.

I drove home tensely. My hands began sweating and I was grabbing the steering wheel stronger and stronger. When I got to my house I ran right to my room without hesitation.

"Hi sweet-" I slammed my door shut before my mom could finish her sentence. I knew it was rude and my mom had always done nothing but the best for me.

But I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.

I threw myself onto my bed, trying not to punch a wall. The anger inside of me just kept growing stronger and stronger. I needed to smoke.

I pulled myself off my bed and searched my desk for weed and a piece. I couldn't find any weed. This was not good.

I threw my hands onto my desk in frustration. Why the fuck is today just about the worst day of my life? I didn't fucking do anything to deserve this.

I hit up my plug hoping he could deliver asap.

(Diego->Plug💊): Yo I need to pick up real quick. You near?

Plug💊: Nah jhit jus flew down to florida for the next few days. But I'll match wit you when i fly back up

(Diego->Plug💊): fuck. Okay

This was not good. I had no clue what I was going to do. I was so close to loosing my mind right there and then. But I looked over to the pill bottle next to my bed.

It was an old pill bottle I used when I used to have a heavy xan addiction. When my mom found out she told me if I love her I had to stop. She couldn't watch me hurt myself. My addiction was bad.

But i did. I haven't used in over 2 months and I was hella proud. But in that moment they were the only things I had. I didn't know what else to do.

I'll only take one. Just one.