HARDBALL - Jake Paul

.:19:. -Im Not Growing Up-

.:IN GENERAL P.O.V:.

"Erika what the fuck is that." Jake says, staring at Erika

"WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT." Jake screams, jamming his head into the bed.

"Jake... I mean." Erika hesitates.

"nooo." Erika hears Jake say, muffled by the bed covers.

"When did you get that?" Jake says sitting up. Erika stands at his doorway to the room leaning on the frame. 

"Well when we all split up at the mall yesterday I passed by it and bought it." Erika says, shedding a tear.

"Wait no, Rik. Wouldnt you be sick or something?" Jake says in hesitant.

"Yeah but I took it.." 

"Whos baby is it," Jake says sitting back on his bed. "It cant be mine..."

"Well I never-" 

"Erika you have to be lying. There is no way I had a baby with you."

"It can only be yours."

"Erika im not fucking growing up. Im not growing up!" Jake says calmly. Erika walks into the room and throws on one of Jakes sweat shirts.

"Jake, tell me when your ready to grow up." Erika leaves the room and closes the doors.

.:JAKES P.O.V:.

I lay back down in my bed and sink in as the matress slowly takes me away. I have too many things going on in my head for me to think straight. The two main thoughts I have in my head are

'is she pranking me'

or

'is she telling the truth'

I realized that I cant be mad at her because I almost took advantage of her when she was drunk but Anthony and Nick tamed me but when we were in Florida it was just the first thing that came to my head which was to smash away. If she was telling the truth that means that Team 10 will either disband or die down so much. I would have my dad pissed at me, my mom would kind of be okay with it. How will I vlog? The critisizm will be ridiculous. I wouldnt know how to handle things.

Getting up from bed, I wash off my face only to make my face red of embarassment and confusion, and take a shower. As I feel the water hit my face, it feels like each drop of water that hits me is another thought that goes into my mind. I soon find myself sliding to the floor of the shower and almost in a complete breakdown. I fucked up bad and abortion is not an option. Abortion shouldnt be an option in this world because it is the couples fault. They shouldnt take the life of someone else as they might be that one person who finds a cure to cancer, or stops the hatred between North Korea and the U.S. What if abortion was an option in the past? To kill the baby. What if people chose to do that and one their baby was the one who brought justice to America. Who brought freedom. 

And me? Im a fuck up. A big fuck up. I decided to not even have safe sex. I decide to go for it. Of course past Jake couldnt wait. I couldnt help myself so I just went for it without any protection. Erika warned me. I ignored. I ignored what she told me as I cared about me and the moment and not the consequences. I honestly wouldnt mind if there was no baby. If there is a baby I would have to figure out what the hell im going to do with my life. 

After around a haf of hour of just sulking in the shower I get out and put on some sweats and a shirt because we werent doing much today. I sulk downstairs to the kitchen and see Erika dying of laughter. I dont understand how she is fine with all of this. Without overreacting I walk by her side and sit down on a stool and go on my phone. I immediently look up 'how to tell someone is pregnant'. All I found were the basic things that was about if the person was sick or acting really out of the ordinary. Eating healthier and not telling you why was one but Erika was just too healthy.

"Jake whats gucci." Anthony asks me. For some reason I hesitate to respond. Feeling the urge in me to just scream for no reason, I kick the counter hard but quietly.

"Jake?" Chance comes around and pats my back. I quietly look up at Erika as she smiles and then winks at me.

"Some Jerika beef going on?" Anthony asks, pouring some cereal.

"Yeah, Jake is pissed." Erika says, everyone looks at me and I just stare at my phone and take a deep breath in and out.

"What happened?" Chance asks, standing directly behind Erika.

"I pranked him." I hear Erika.

I heard those words replay in my head a billion times.

"Jake what happened?" Chance looks at me.

"What Erika said." I say immediently.

"Jake I didnt say anything." Erika says as she walks to the fridge.

That meant that I was just hearing things. I get up from the stool and walk to my merch store to find Apollo sleeping there.

"Hey buddy," I start to talk to Apollo because I have nothing better to do with my life.I bend down and he hops on my legs,"Erika is pregnant and I dont know waht to do. I am hoping its a prank but she wouldve told me by now. I fucked up bad and I dont know what to do. She is super chill about it but Im freaking out." 

I sigh, Apollo starts licking my face, I stand up and start to head upstairs to my room.

"Jake bro wait up!" Anthony starts to follow behind me up the stairs.

"What bro?" I say, brushing through my hair with my hands.

"Whats gucci? What are you pissed about." He says as he pats my back.

"Can ya leave me alone Tony?" I say as I turn around at the top of the stairs towards him.

"Did I do soemthing?" He asks.

"No- Its just-" I sigh and turn around.

"What bro what?" 

"I GOT ERIKA PREGNANT OKAY?" I scream as I shut the door on Anthonys face.

I stand by the door and put my head on it. I dont understand my feelings right now. Im happy but sad. Im confused but not. Im weak but strong. I slide down the door and put my head in my hands.

"Jake open up..." I hear a soft voice say.

"No." I respond. Not caring who it is.

"Jakey." Only Anthony would call me by that name.

"What?What?" I say, calming my nerves down.

"Open up." He says.

I stand up and curl up a hand and make a fist to control my flutter of emotions.

"Jake, bro, if you really cant handle this.... Adoption. I think its absolutley horrendus but someone will adopt the child immediently." Anthony says as he walks into my room. 

Adoption. Adoption? Thats outrageous. I will be shunned for life and my carreer will go in the garbage. I wont even be known 2 weeks later. Team ten will fall. People will stop looking up to me, I will be a terrible example. Abortion is even worse. That is asking for a death wish.

"Your out of your goddamn mind Anthony. Im not putting a kid up for adoption. My family will be shunned, so will Erika's." I scream. I walk out the room and head downstairs.

"Jake.." I hear Anthony say as I walk down the stairs.

"Anthony im not mad, im just confused. I dont know what to do or what will happen."

Its true, I was confused and wont really understand what to do, how will I tell my fans and what would my family do? I dont want to grow up. 

Im Not Growing Up.