Different Paths (Reylo ff) //Finished

Rey

I placed him on the table. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to harm him. I knew Bens problems. But he didn't want to face them. At least killing Snoke was a beginning. But Snoke was still there. Still commanding Ben. Manipulating him. Abusing him. Using him.

I decided to care for Leia. It would take some time until Kylo would wake up. But as I came outside, Leia was gone. Most of the dead bodies were gone. And the lightsaber was gone too. Very suspicious. Until I found out what was happening, I had to make sure Kylo didn't go anywhere. And I needed to make sure I was in a somehow good state to fight if I had to.

Back in the ship, I took the last water reserves and poured them into two glasses. Only seconds after I was done, Ben woke up.

"Where am I? What happened?"

Although as he saw me, his face turned angry.

"You! What do you want?! Why did you even carry me here?!"

But I just handed him the glass of water. I knew he needed it. I felt it. And besides, I saw it. He didn't look good at all. As stupid as he was though, he didn't take it.

"We're on Jakku. Usually there's not much water here."

He immediately took it. His expression softened.

"I have to ask you", I started, "why did you in first place kill Han, and in second place not care about Leia?"

"Oh I don't know!" His expression frustrated.

"You don't know?!" I didn't understand.

"I don't know anything. I don't know who I hate. Who cares about me. Who doesn't. I don't know what side of the force I'm on. Why I'm actually living! I don't have any purpose in life! I don't even know who I like and who I don't. Everyone is neutral for me. Except for you. With you everything is different."

He looked at me. With puppy dog eyes. Sadness overcoming his whole face. He was clearly holding back tears.

"..."

"But you still think I'm a monster..."