He hesitated and you only waited to see if he would actually say it. You were so desperate, and before you died, you wanted to hear it from him. It would be special.
"I love you." He said. You felt your eyes well up and you smiled at him. Your tears fell until you started to violently cough. This one was surely the end of you. You were coughing until you couldn't breathe. Everything around you disappeared. There were petals falling from your mouth. You couldn't see what colors they were. You just knew there were a lot. Fifty? Maybe forty-two. You didn't care. You were throwing up blood, and before you fell into a black abyss, you saw Junhoe's lip quiver and he ran out of the room. Then, you closed your eyes and collapsed on the bed.
When Junhoe ran out, he leaned against the wall and covered his eyes with his hand. He let everything out. All the tears and sobs he held in while he talked to you in that room. He cried. He cried hard. He was sorry. He was guilty. He was helpless. He just sobbed uselessly against the wall while Chanwoo and the others ran into the room. He fell to the floor and just sobbed.
I'm sorry. He thought. The expression on your face when he told you he loved you made him cry harder.
I'm so sorry. The worst part was that when he said it, he didn't mean it. He wanted to but he couldn't. He tried his hardest. But now he made it worse as you were dying in that room because of him.
"(Y/N)? (Y/N)! Wake up! Please!" He heard Donghyuk cry out. He kept on crying. He should've been in there helping you, but he was being a baby and crying outside the door.
"Call the ambulance!" Hanbin said. He cried out harder than he ever did in his life. He couldn't protect you. You were his best friend since high school and he couldn't even help you when you needed him most. He remembered when you would come over to his house and bring him company while he worked. He remembered your smile when he told you a stupid joke.
He remembered how you would always pout whenever he teased you for your height. He remembered how lucky he was to have you. He remembered your face when he responded to your question in the kitchen that day. He remembered your face when he told you he loved you. He remembered how your tears fell from your eyes when you were coughing out your own love for him. He imagined you right now. He realised that his life would mean nothing without you. He cried harder thinking about your funeral. He regret everything he did. He closed his eyes and sobbed his heart out until he fell down and blacked out.
I'm sorry I couldn't protect you.
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Suffocating Love (iKon Fanfic) Junhoe x Reader + Hanahaki Disease
Romance(Y/N) grew feelings for her best friend, Koo Junhoe, but she couldn't tell him. Now, she was battling with death as a poisonous flower was growing inside her, feeding off of her one-sided love. The Hanahaki Disease is an illness born from one-sided...
