Desiderium

Zweiundreißig

I don't even know what I was at first until I met that pale blonde haired woman at the midst of my confusion, she led me to a life that I can hardly imagine that I could live of.

Shaking in cold and vulnerable, I let myself follow her even though I don't even know who is this person, I just have the feeling that I can trust her.

Alongside with her is a tall guy wearing a cape with red fur adorning the neckline, the unusual thing is this guy has a sharped and barbed tail like a scorpion.

I stare at his back curiously, because his tail is wagging back and forth as he walk, it's kind of comical to watch.

Now what's left in my mind is, who are they? Did they even know me?

The blonde woman turned at me, her golden eyes held so much power and authority in their depths, it will make you want to cower and run away.

But I am surprised that I don't even feel scared of her.

"Cu, pick her up, we must hurry, I don't like much the cold." She said while not leaving her eyes on me. The guy named Cu pick me up easily with his tail, the scorpion like tail coiled around my body surprisingly gently as he put me above his shoulder.

I blinked a couple of times but he spoke first "Don't think of this as an act of kindness, our 'kind' doesn't know what that means."

Our 'kind'?

I looked at him with confusion as I tilt my head to the side with curiosity filled my mind "Our 'kind'? What do you mean?"

Cu tsked "We are---"

The blonde haired woman interrupted him "It's too early for that, Cu Chúlainn, you might shocked the kid."

I pursed my lips tightly "I am not a kid anymore" I protested, but the two of them ignored me as they keep walking.

I slumped in defeat, I don't even know who and what I am, the only thing I remember is waking up in that garden full of pale colored roses, it's truly elegant and regal.

Then, the first person I saw is a little girl who is the same age as mine, looming over with a comely face, silver eyes clouded with worry and wonder.

I wonder who is she? She is too beautiful to be true, like a glass doll.

I sighed to myself, I feel a connection between myself and that girl, I feel like I know her more than anyone else.

"We're here." I came back to my senses when we arrived inside of a forest, with a old house right before us.

The woman touch the gate and there's a ripple like a water under her finger that an invisible gate appeared before us.

My eyes widened in amusement "Woah.." There I saw a castle, like almost similar to where they found me.

The two of them walked inside, I cling on Cu's head, my two small arms wrapped around it, gladly, he didn't protest.

"W-where are we?" I said, my voice almost sounded it is squeaking.

"We are in Dún Scáth, the Land of Shadows, from here, you will be train like us and we will raise you." He responded, his baritone voice echoed through the dark walls.

I explore the whole corridor with my eyes, the walls are glistening under the faint light given by the torches, there is a sparkling part where I thought it was gold, yet, I think it really is.

There are huge vases in the sides and multiple doors that we passed by, I wonder why is there alot of room here?

The woman opened a door and Cu went inside, his tail wrapped my body again as it picked me up gently then it put me down on the ground.

I look around the room, it is very huge with a canopy bed in the middle filled of dark blue silk sheets and multiple pillows.

"Did you like it?" The woman asked, I turn to look at her and nodded happily "Yes! I like it very much!" I chirped as I beamed at her.

Cu huffs "Shame, is she really one of us? Why is this one so happy and bubbly? She is like a pollution here."

I pouted "I am not a pollution, mister hoodie." The woman chuckled then she crouched down to my level, her pale eyes stood out in the dimness of the room.

"My name's Aila and we belong in the same kind of people, Ire." She said as she stroke my hair with her hand covered of metal gauntlet.

"Ire?" I asked curiously.

Aila nodded "Yes, Ire, means wrathful or anger, because that's you."

Me? Anger? But how?

Aila chuckled darkly, her eyes emitting a dangerous spark in their depths.

I have to swallowed thickly, is she going to hurt me? But the way she stroke my hair is so gentle, despite of how cold she looks.

"We are the darkness that everyone fears. The madness that crawls up to their heart." She said, slowly, but with a hint of vileness in her tone.

I glanced at Cu, his red eyes are also gleaming like a cat's, he kind of looks like a goblin.

Same as Aila, but hers are quite different, I wonder what?

"We are the Alter Egos..."

I woke up by the sound of something rustling along the bushes in the garden, I didn't noticed that I fell asleep until I had that dream.

I rub my face slowly, I still remember my childhood and yet I left Dún Scáth without a word, Cu might be angry at me, I cut off all my connections with them.

Because I wanted to look for the other part of me, I want to protect her as long as I exist, shield her away from danger and cruelty.

Maybe Cú's right, I am like an outcast from the group of Alter Egos because I feel sympathy to the other me, but I know what she have been through.

They wouldn't understand.

Despite the fact that she established something cold and stoic to herself, she is still vulnerable deep inside.

I get up from where I am sitting, I sniff the air to know the scent of the intruder, my eyes narrowed into pinpoints, a demon.

I step out from where I am standing and there I saw a woman with curly black hair and a black dress that has a burnt edges.

I carefully trod along, as I walk, I raise my right hand and a black purple energy coming out from it again "Viy."

A black thorns potruded from the earth then it automatically wrapped around the woman's throat, she almost shriek in pain as the thorns dig into her skin but the vines coiled around her mouth to shut her up.

She tried to struggle, but the vines with thorns are getting more tight around her and it is nice to see her bleeding.

An unworthy trash like her is not worth of Ira's salt.

I smirked cruelly "The more you struggle, the more it will tighten, just like a spider web."

I can hear her heartbeat getting weaker, tears spilling down her eyes as she starts to choke out with blood.

She will be done for.

"Stop it, Ire!" 

I turn to look where the familiar voice came from and there I saw Raphael, looking so angry marching towards me.
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A/N: Well 😈😈😈😈