I Find Myself in Words

Not Knowing

Not knowing what you think
or if you want me in your life is killing me.
I feel as if you not talking to me, makes our friendship fall apart
and I don't want to lose you.
Losing you would lead me to losing myself.
When I see you with them I feel betrayed
even though you're not even mine.
I wish I could ask you so many questions and
everything would be fine, but I can't because I'll ruin
this friendship more than I already have.
I wish I could read your mind,
so I can know your honest opinion.
I want the raw truth.
I don't want you to tweak it so it will "please" me,
no.
If I ask for the honest truth I should get it,
but I don't and I want to know why.