colours

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i'm iwaizumi hajime, oikawa's best friend, and his soulmate.

many people ask, "why did i never really treat him nicely?"

well, that's... something i don't really know either. in conclusion, i'm probably the shittiest person in existence.

truth to be told, i didn't know he was my soulmate. i took the colours that i saw in my everyday life for granted, and i never really questioned their existence. i never probed deeper, never wondered why i saw them in the first place.

but oikawa was curious. he wondered who his soulmate could be. he questioned the colours he saw, and wanted to know the reason behind them. he wanted to find the person he was destined to be with.

i didn't know that they were me. i admit, i'm the densest person living on this planet.

that was until oikawa wrote a poem. and the poem was about me.

i won't read it as i'm unsure whether or not he would consent to it, so i'll just keep it that way.

i never knew that he was my soulmate until the moment he was dying. the colours... began to fade, along with his life...

oikawa was really a great person. he was kind, compassionate, hardworking... too hardworking, to be honest. he even sprained his knee once just by practicing jump serves over and over again. and being his soulmate is something i'm proud to say.

to anyone who isn't questioning the vibrant colours they're seeing: it's because of them, your soulmate. cherish them. because the colours aren't eternal, and they're as fickle as anything could be, and most importantly, it's like your soulmate's lifeline. don't take them for granted.

in conclusion, i regret not knowing that this amazing person was my soulmate and had been by my side for thirteen years of my life. and if i could say anything to him if he was still alive, i'd say "i'm sorry".

so thank you, oikawa. thank you for playing a big part in my life thus far, and thank you for always being there for me. thank you for being the best setter i could ever ask for, and thank you for... everything. most importantly, thank you for bringing colour into my life.

thank you. i'm sorry. i'll miss you.