My brothers best friend

One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

The next morning I got up earlier then usual and woke Caleb up. Which was probably a bitch move cause It was super early and Caleb usually wakes up really late. He didn't seemed to mind though I just cuddled up next to him and he played with my hair while he was still half asleep.

"Did you miss me?" He teased in a sleepy voice. I thought about it for a second and yes if course I missed him. How could I not, but he didn't need to know that. "Maybe a little." I lied. He chuckled and kissed the top of my head.

 I left to my room to get ready for school. When I heard my brother get up. Me and Caleb didn't pay much attention to each other not wanting Austin to expect anything. 

 I was at my locker getting my books after 4th period. "Hey princess." I'd know that voice anywhere. I spun around quickly to see Caleb standing in front of me. "What are you doing here?" I asked in a cheerful but also surprised. I never really ever saw Caleb in the halls during school. I didn't even know he knew where my locker was. He chuckled "I'm escorting my princess to her next class." He told me. I raised my eyebrows at him "Oh yeah, where is she?" I asked him with a giggle. He looked for a long time I'm not really sure how long. I couldn't read his expression and that made me uncomfortable.

His mouth the curved up into a wide grin. "Do I make you nervous, Emmy?" He asked me with a clearly amused look on his face. "W-W-What, n..no you.." I trailed off. He was looking down at my right arm which I was pinching nervously. "Really, cause if I remember right.." He paused to point my right arm which was turning red from my pinching. "When we went to the dentist when you were 10. I went over to comfort a crying Emma and you told me you were scared, and I noticed you pinching your arm then and you told me it was a nervous habit."

I looked at him incredulously. How the hell did he remember that. We started to walk to class since the bell would be ringing soon. "You seriously remember that?" I gasped. "Yeah of course." He said back. 

"You're a dork." I called back to him jokingly. "Oh yeah?" Before I could even process his answer I was being pressed up against a nearby locker with Caleb's arms on either side of my head. I quickly maneuvered myself of his trap. Scared someone would see and tell my brother. "What are you doing?" I breathed out quickly. 

"You're really cute when you're nervous." He told me with a smirk playing on his lips. "We should go out tonight?" He asked/ told me. "Um.. are you asking me out like on a date..a real date?" I questioned him nervously. He gave me a warm smile and nodded. I was confused. I mean obviously I had always wanted to go out with him, but I was more suddenly scared for reasons I hadn't even realized until now. Besides my brother would kill him. "Do you really think that's a good idea?" I asked him in a small voice. "I for one think it's an fantastic idea." He announced cheerfully. "Caleb, I I don't think we should." I told him in a shaking voice. He furrowed his eyebrows obviously confused. "Do you not want to go out with me?" He wondered. "No it's nothing like that I just I don't want my brother to find out about us its just complicated." I answered. "So we don't tell your brother?" He said cheerfully as if he solved everything. "Caleb, it's not that simple..I. I don't know." I lied. "Okay." He told me with a blank expression.

He finished waking me to class and gave me a weak smile before walking away. I Just couldn't bring myself to tell him why I couldn't do this. I was scared. I know it's stupid. I was so scared he would leave again, just like my mom I know she doesn't do it to hurt me but it kills me every time she comes back to town cause I know everything is temporary with the people I loved. My mother, Caleb, my old best friend and I know its stupid to hold on to that but when you're feeling sorry for your self everything comes out. Hell my own dad even left right after I was born. Austin had been the only constant in my life and I know in a few years he'd probably leave me to. 

We had come so far and I just ruined it in a matter of seconds, I was back to square one. Avoiding Caleb and feeling sorry for myself. 

"Emma, please stop crying." Maddie told me in a sympathetic voice. "You're going to ruin my shirt." She told me with a giggle. I laughed through my tears and it was probably the most unattractive sound ever. But I was glad Maddie was here she always knew how to make me laugh. "Actually, I'm pretty sure this is your shirt." She informed me. I let out a little sob/laugh. "It's one of my favorite shirts actually." She giggled. "See even more reason to stop crying." She snorted. I sighed heavily and sat up off Maddie's shoulder. She wiped a few tears from my face. "That's better." She told me. 

I gave her a weak smile. "C'mon were going out." She announced trying to pull me up off my bed. I made myself heavy so she couldn't pull me. "Maddie I'm not going anywhere, I look like hell!" I cried out. "I know I'll clean you up don't worry." I sighed not wanting to go anywhere. I knew I didn't really have a choice Maddie would find some way to get me out of this house. I let her do my make-up which actually made me feel better cause even though I was a mess inside I looked pretty hot when she was finished. Maddie and I walked down the stairs too find 8 girls and 4 guys who were once watching tv but now there eyes were on me and Maddie which felt weird at first but at least I had my make-up done properly and not running down my face like it was earlier.