Today is: 4/3/18
So, what bad things happened today, Max?
My day went by pretty swell. The only down side was losing ultimately in a quiz bee. I also got a massive headache, but because of that, they let me go home early. I took a nap once I got home, and I feel good. I just hope I don't have to miss school tomorrow. (Edit: okay, I think a rat just climbed over my shoulder or something. Now, I'm creeped out. ;-;)
And what is our happy thought for today?
I use mine everyday, probably why I'm partially deaf:
EARPHONES.
Funny story, I nearly put the buds into my earrings awhile ago because the hoops were so big. I actually thought the hoops were my ears' holes.
I like earphones because it gives me a sense of privacy. Ironically, it feels quieter when I'm wearing them than when I'm not. I assume it's because my ears can focus more on what I'm playing. Everyone at home is just so loud. Yelling, the daily crying, dogs barking, engines roaring, they irritate my ears.
I have hearing problems. I'm a bit sensitive to loud noises, but I won't be able to hear you with the normal volume of your voice. It scares me to think that there is a possibility of me going deaf. Sure, sign language is available, and I already know how to sign, but I don't think can live my life without hearing anymore.
The earphones help me hear better, too. Sometimes fixing the tangles is annoying. Terrifying because I've broken so many earphones that I've lost count. Some people prefer headphones, but I don't like the feeling of my ears being covered completely. The sensation makes me feel caged.
When I feel scared, I just plug in my earphones and play music. It feels nice to force your attention onto something when you're scared. You don't notice what happens around you. Ignorance is bliss. I wish I didn't feel that rat just a few minutes ago. I felt my dinner go up my digestive track ever so slightly.
There's a world that opens up when you close yourself in. That's the feeling I get whenever I block out the noises from the outside. It's like nothing can harm me, like nothing bad is gonna happen. And I'm pretty sure that's what we all want, right? I know that isn't possible, but by alienating myself from everyone else, I get a break from all of this.
(I just saw the rat, so I'm gonna have to end it here. I don't want that thing goin near me again.)
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