365 Twinkling Lights

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Today is: 3/18/18

So, what bad things happened today, Max?

I procrastinated all of my homework again. Even if I told myself that I wasn't going to. My brother put me and my mom in a bad mood. We both calmed down after talking with the taxi driver, though. He makes good conversation. Oh, and I have to worry about a script because silly me just had to volunteer as emcee for the class. Great, isn't it?

And what is our happy thought for today?

I'm running out of things that make me happy, but I think this one beats the ones I've already enlisted:
KIRISHIMA EIJIROU.

Okay, he is the bae that tops all my other baes. This boy is just too much for me to handle. My internet is way too slow to let me add a picture, so I guess googling him is the next best thing.

Whenever I'm in a bad mood, I look at his picture. (I bring a printed picture of him to school and it's humiliating.) Just seeing him sets my soul (and heart) on fire. I'm just gonna have to list down all my bois one by one till I get through the 365 days of twinkling lights. But to be fair, he really is one of the twinkling lights in my life.

I guess I should give some more general information about him first. Kirishima Eijirou is part of an anime called Boku no Hero Academia. (My Hero Academia, in English) The story is pretty much us following the life of a normal high school boy in a world where 80% of humans have superpowers. So, this normal boy gets a superpower from his favorite superhero and gets into his dream school, U.A., school of the superheroes in training. Kirishima is basically the main protagonist's classmate. My boi just gets more screen time since he's the best friend of our not-so-main protagonist, which happens to be the best-friend-turned-bully of the main protagonist.

I don't know how I became so infatuated with Kirishima, I just found myself falling and falling for the fictional character. I'll be honest, character analysis is not my forte. I'm terrible at it. So, when I find myself falling for a character or anyone in general, it makes me uncomfortable. It feels like my attraction has no basis whatsoever, like if you tried hard enough, you could make me fall for you.

I don't look at outward appearance, but I definitely can't see the personality of someone. I can figure out situations, but not people.

Somehow, this guy just makes me feel better about crushing on someone. He was scrawny, and people didn't take it seriously when he tried to act heroic. He looked up to all the "manly" people, but one day just felt like "I can never be one of them." He nearly gave up on his dream, because of all the insecurities flooding his head. His superpower would actually be pretty great for a hero. (He can harden his skin so, in a way, he can be used as either shield or sword.) Luckily, he didn't give up, and he trained himself more. It makes me so proud to see someone do that. It makes me happy.

So, I definitely find him attractive, that's for sure. What stands out the most is his perseverance, though. He encourages people when they're down, and he just seems like a pretty great guy all in all.

Of course, I can't tell my parents I'm in a one-sided relationship with an imaginary guy. It just makes me really happy to see someone like him.

He reminds me that even if you're tearing yourself down, even if the world tries tearing you down, with enough perseverance, you can build yourself up again. That idea is something I personally struggle to understand. It seems so impossible, yet, seeing someone who doesn't even exist make it through...brings me hope.

So be like a rock and stand firm, even when the world tries to bring you down. Be unbreakable, but also remember to be flexible.

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