Remarkable (The Shape of Water/fanfics) [1]

Chapter Thirteen

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   Gianna
Three of us are heading back to the
cottage in without saying anything but a word, kept our mouth shut. Silent.

But I'm having some trouble feeling of inside me—but I was feeling content, almost happy, in a way I hadn't been since I'd arrived at this cottage.

It felt like something restless had finally been settled inside me. I wasn't sure exactly what it was, but it had happened when Cortex came to appeared has been arrived to see me. But mostly we both did end up in having sexual intercourse.

After that, my whole world—even this harsh, primitive one—felt better.

Once we're got on aboard of the deck, Gina walked back inside the cot, I told her that I need to talk with Cortex in privately, alone. So she perfectly did.

Me and Cortex are staying beside the lake, I grab all the stuffs from the boat and putting them inside this cot, retreating back to the lake. Cortex's standing stilled at the deck while being busy looking at the lake views, as he turn and looked at me with frowned.

As he leading closer to me like he's trying to figuring out through my eyes for whole explanation about yesterday. Even thought I wasn't that comfort for telling him all the crazy shit things that I didn't do. I had to force myself that he needed to know more than the truth. I have to tell him. Right here, right now.

I glanced for a second, look back at him as he's patiently waiting for me for my answer. But I'm kinda of bit nervous if I told him about Jack, he would be mad or upset. I'm wasn't so sure about other cause of thing for Cortex's capable of.

"Cortex, I want you to listen me carefully. Before I say... I don't think... I've..." I felt my heart is completely shattering, like I couldn't stand it. I kept thinking about from my past. How Jack was seduced me, trying for having sex with me without anyone noticing about me and him. How I've became to betrayed Cortex for not telling him the truth. How am I going to explained this?

But I shouldn't has a chance to told him. I didn't. Everything that whole thing is completely fuck up. I was completely scared, shame, cheating wife, and a reckless whore. That's what I am. A whore.

So right now, Cortex watched me carefully at my expression, and waiting. If only I've knew what he's must be thinking about... it wouldn't have to take granted and be grateful for that. I just hope Cortex would understand me, hoping I wouldn't want him to be hurtful way before if I say this... things.

I took a deep big breath, did it twice once more. Face him again, who's looking deeply frustrated at me. Okay Gianna, you should tell him right now, or otherwise he might loosing his shit.

I'm might as well tell him the truth.

"I don't think we should do it." I blurted out, as he's s stood still carefully.

"Run away." I said firmly. "I mean I don't want you to come here and see me like this. I just need you to go and I'm going to stay."

I couldn't believe what word I was saying.

"I have a husband, I'm his wife. Which mean me and him are mate. This wasn't meant you were my first. But he's an important man. He has many soldiers who follow him." I explained.

Cortex's expression began to harden and doesn't sound right about what I described about this person was, even though it's male.

"I've always cared about it. I enjoyed our time together Cortex but we have to be reasonable. It could never work out between us. You are a amphibian and I have a duty to fulfill as the wife. We all have to do things we don't want to do."