Love isn't always fair. (Austin Carlile fanfic)

Love isn't always fair.

LAURA'S P.O.V

It's been weeks since the incident happened and I can't seem to take my mind off it. I still think about Austin but I don't know if I can face him again after what he did. I only have two options ; forgive him and just try to be friends or just leave him out of my life. I know he might be hurting because I left him but he kicked me out of his house and then cheated on me with his ex. I'm sure as hell I'm the one who got hurt the most in this situation. 

I didn't even tell Hannah about it and she's been sending me thousands of text messages and trying to call me but I don't really want to talk about what happened even though she's my best friend. I don't want to lose her so I think it's best if I call her back and meet up with her so I can explain everything to her.

~ phonecall ~

Hannah : Hello? 

Me: Hey Han , umm I just wanted to say I'm sorry for ignoring every single text and call you made but I was in a bad state , still am actually but I don't want to worry you that's why I haven't told you what happened yet..

Hannah : What happened? 

Me: Well me and Austin broke up..a few weeks ago..

Hannah: What? Why?

Me : Remember when we met that pub with you and Oli? Well before we walked in I saw Ashley and I talked to him and then when I came inside Austin asked me why I took so long and I told him that I bumped into Ash and he wasn't very happy about it. Then when we went home he started yelling and being an asshole and he kicked me out. I'm staying at Ashley's for a bit until I find an apartment to stay in.

Hannah: What? With Ashley? How could you? You can't trust that guy Laura I've told you a million times. Remember he left you after 3 fucking years of dating. Are you stupid? 

Me: It wasn't his fucking choice he had to move away! Why doesn't anyone understand? I thought you would understand me Hannah since you're my best friend.

Hannah: He could do something about it not leave you like that. Words can't explain how mad I  am at you right now Laura. So you just got out of a relationship and now you're already in another? 

Me: What? A relationship? I'm not in a relationship with Ashley! It doesn't work like that Hannah.

Hannah : I'm not surprised if you hooked up with him already.

 That's it. I lost it. I can't hold my tears back anymore. Why doesn't anyone understand me? 

Me : Thanks Hannah , I thought you were my best friend.

And with that I hung up. 

I feel like my life is falling apart once again. I lost Austin and now I lost Hannah. My parents don't give a shit about me and probably forgot I even exist. What do I have left? 

 All of a sudden , a bunch of memories started flashing through my mind. I ran to the bathroom and slammed the door shut. I leaned my back against the door and just sat there crying. I need something that would help me ease the pain right now. I stood up and  searched for that familiar shiny piece of silver metal in my makeup bag. I finally  found it and sat back down on the hard , cold floor , still crying. I rolled my sleeve up and looked at my old scars. I put the blade on my wrist and drew a line. Then another one and another. Blood started pouring out of my cuts and I couldn't stop it so I quickly put a bandage around my bloody wrist and rolled my sleeve back down and cleaned off the blood droplets on the floor. I picked up the blade and hid it back in my makeup bag.

I heard the front door open and I quickly wiped away my tears, hopin Ashley wouldn't notice I've been crying. Yeah sure , my puffy , red eyes made it obvious enough.

"Hey love- are you alright Laura?" Shit. How did he notice? I didn't even make eye contact with him.

"I'm fine." I said quietly , my voice still shaky.

He walked up to me and placed a finger under my chin and tilted my head up so I could look at him properly. He grabbed me from my wrist and pulled me closer to him which caused me to wince.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"Nothing.." I mumbled.

He gently pulled my sleeve up and his eyes went wide when he saw my blood stained bandage on my wrist.

"Baby, why?" His voice was shaky , like he was close to crying.

"I'm sorry.." I said.

"The only one you should be apologising to is yourself for harming that beautifful body of yours , sweetheart." 

"I called Hannah this morning and explained everything to her.. turns out she's mad at me aswell." I said.

"I'm sorry Laura , it's going to be alright, trust me. Let's just relax and watch a movie. Okay?"

"Okay."

Sorry it's kinda short but like I said , I'm still doing my exams at the moment and I need to study. Everything will be over soon though because my holidays are starting on Wednesday  :D