Serenity

Lifeline

I was dancing on the table when I noticed Adam was missing. I remembered that I hadn't seen him since the incident that occurred an hour or so ago. I knew that he didn't have the same feelings for me that I had for him and I should have just let it be. I knew I shouldn't have kissed him but it felt so right in the moment and Adam even acted like he enjoyed it, that was until Addison walked in and ruined everything. Adam left with her, leaving me heartbroken against the hallway wall and I haven't seen him since.

Adam was never one to leave me at a party by myself though because he knew me well enough to know that being alone with a group of people gives me anxiety. I wondered where he was other then the obvious fact but because he was my ride home, but I also wanted to make sure he was okay considering everything that had happened.

I bent my knees and threw myself off the table, landing wrong on my left ankle and feeling a sharp stabbing pain rush up my calf. I ignored the pain and continued on my way to find my best friend.

The fact that he had just disappeared on me on a night like that really pissed me off for some reason. He knew better. I could tell that my anxiety was about to get the best of me by the way my heart started speeding up like I was uncontrollably nervous. The soles of my hands started to become slick with sweat and my breathing started getting heavier. Everyone tries to tell me that my anxiety is just in my head to just breathe and it would go away but I knew better than to believe that. I was too weak to overcome it, it always won somehow.

WHERE'S ADAM... my subconscious was freaking out and that warning in the pit of my stomach that I had ignored earlier, came back full force slamming into my weak body. I had searched every inch of the house before I had realized that Adam just wasn't here anymore and I had no idea where to find him.

I yanked my phone out from inside my jacket pocket and dialed his number only for it to go straight to his voicemail. I tried dialing his phone a few more times and each time, I got sent straight to his voicemail which I had memorized by now.

Hey, This is Adam. Sorry I can't get to the phone right now but please leave your name and number and I'll try my best to get back with you as soon as possible. Have a bomb ass day.

"Adam, I'm sorry about what happened. Umm.. I don't know if you're just avoiding me or if something is actually wrong but I have a weird feeling right now and you know my gut feelings are always right. Pick up the phone and at least let me know you're okay, please!" I whispered fiercely into the phone, hoping that he'd see it and get into touch with me.

I knew I was being dramatic about him being gone but when I'm alone with a bunch of people, I felt singled out and made my loneliness 100 times worse then before. Don't get me wrong, I can handle being around people, just not in such a huge setting as this one with a bunch of over the top drunk high school kids who think the world owes them something. Plus, no one really liked me there since I was the kid who's mom couldn't stand being around so she took her own life, and my best friend was the boy that they whole student body was in love with.

The music was booming full force that I almost didn't hear the slight beeping of my cell phone indicating a incoming call. I just about dropped the damn thing trying to get it out fast enough, desperately hoping it was Adam. I glanced down at my phone and the caller was unknown.

Ugh.

I didn't answer the call because I never answered phone calls that I didn't know, not wanting to be caught on the phone with telemarketers. I sighed, walking back towards the living room to find a place to sit so I could think straight. The alcohol in my system taking it's poll on me, making my stomach more queasy.