Serenity

I Will Never Forget You

~Adam POV~

Beep.

Beep.

Beep.

I stared down at her lifeless body, desperately waiting for a sign that she was still alive. They've already told me and her family multiple times, which just consisted of her father, that she was dead. When she was found at the scene of the accident, she was already gone and that there was absolutely nothing anyone could do to save her.

I couldn't save her. I couldn't bring her back and that realization weighed down on my heart like a ton of bricks, cracking my heart into pieces. I knew that I should have never left her at that stupid party by herself. I shouldn't have left the way that I had. I wanted to surprise her. Show her that I cared. Tell her my feelings for her were real just like hers were.

Now, I'll never be able too.

"Adam." Her father, Mr. Atlas gently laid his hand on my shoulder, "It's time to take the bo-body." His voice cracked on the last word, salt water gently gathering in his eyes, making it hard to see his pupils.

I didn't want to release her body to them. Releasing her body, means handing her completely over to death and I definitely wasn't ready to do that. She wasn't dead to me. I wasn't ready for Frannie to take the hand of death. I mean yes, of course her body physical was dead but her mind, her heart, her endless love for me wasn't dead. I couldn't let her go. Letting her go is the same thing has letting her down, she was too special to me for me to just act like she never existed.

This was all my fault.

***

The funeral was held a few days later at a little church on the corner of 65th street in Little Rock, Arkansas. Francesca and I had both basically grown up in this church our whole lives, until we stopped coming a few years back. We figured we were teenagers and we were too good for church, how wrong we were though.

As soon as I walked in that morning, it was like the walls themselves were filling my head with the familiar sense of home. The building had always been home for me since everything at the actual house I rested my head at, had not one single feeling of home to me. I wasn't home there, it was just a place I laid my body at night.

I hadn't wanted to have the funeral here for that particular reason. I didn't want the joy I always felt walking into that building, tarnished with the memories of my dead best friend. I can't believe she's really gone...

I was waiting for the joke to be over and Fran comes sprinting to me from somewhere in the back where she sat laughing at everyone's reaction. Of course that would have been too cruel for her to do, but she would have still been alive at least.

I was waiting for my mother to stop talking to everyone and make her way to the front area. Honestly, I was surprised mom even decided attend, considering she just lost her friend as well a few weeks ago. But then again, my parents had always been really close to Fran's family before Fran and I were even born. There wasn't one thing on the earth that we wouldn't had done for each other and that's what made us all so close. 

It's what made us family.

"Mom," I whispered in her ear, trying to get her attention. "We need to find our seats. The service is about to start."

"Alright, you go ahead and I'll catch up with you in a second."

Of course. I knew she would act this way, just was wishing for a different outcome. Every time she was out of her comfort zone, she would try and escape from the situation. I'd be surprised if she actually stuck around for the actual service. I knew how she was and she was a runner when her emotions started to controlling her. Thats one of the reasons she's an alcoholic. She needed an escape from life and thats how she did it. 

Without saying a word back to her, I swiftly turned on my heels and made my way toward the front where Fran's dad was sitting next to her grandmother. I didn't particular want to sit smack dab in the front, but I knew if I didn't then Mr. Atlas would be disappointed. He wanted someone who knew Fran just as much as he did close. I was the one who spent the absolute most time around her then anyone else. She was my best friend. My everything. My life. 

The service itself went by smoothly and without complications. A few of Frans other friends got up and said a few nice things about Fran and about how much they would miss her. Everyone said they would miss her. I mean, how could you not? She was literally like a breath of fresh air to everyone around her. She healed people with her smile and made everyone want to be around her. So yeah, they were right. She would definitely be missed. But no one would miss her as much as I would. 

I knew Mr. Atlas wanted me to get up and say a few words about her as well but I didn't. I just couldn't stand up there and talk about how she's gone and all that bullshit. I wasn't ready to let her go.

 I refused. 

A/N: Hey guys! I'm incredibly sorry on how long its taken me to upload this. I've had a lot of stuff been going on the last few weeks and I honestly just haven't had the time to get on here! I'm going to most definitely start doing better though! Thanks for y'alls patiences. Let me know what y'all think!!