Your voice (completed)[under editing]

33. Chris

My heart sank every time I thought about not seeing Amy every day. Not being able to hear her voice. Not being able to hold her in my arms and tell her everything was going to be okay. But now what was I going to do. Before I'd met Amy I would either spend the day locked in my bedroom or go out on a walk alone. But the most nerve racking thing was that I had no idea when she would leave and neither did she. The only thing we knew was that she would leave as soon as the house had been sold.

I tried to be there to support Amy but there was nothing I could do that would cheer her up. Every time we were together now we hardly ever spoke we would just sit there in silence. To afraid to say anything, to afraid that we might end up upsetting each other. I told my family what was happening and I could see their disappointment. I knew that they had loved Amy ever since I had introduced her and it was actually because of her that I was now closer to my family. I had started to talk to them more and we had started to spend more time together. We would share our days and we would all sit together and either watch something on the tv or just talk.

But then what will happen once Amy's gone. What will we talk about then. Will we start to drift apart again or will everything stay the same. I just cant bare the thought of Amy not being here.

I was in my bedroom thinking everything through when my sister walked in. I sat down on my bed and she sat beside me. She gave me a supportive smile trying to lighten the mood but all I could give her was a weak smile.

She looked down at the pieces of paper and the two pens in her hand. She handed me one and then started writing on one of the pieces of paper. This was the new way that we had found worked out for both of us. This way we could communicate better. We had been getting on a lot better lately especially with this new way of communicating.

Cat- how are you today?
Chris- still not sure what I should do
Cat- about what?
Chris- about everything.
Cat- things still awkward
Chris- yeah. I just don't know how I can help
Cat- maybe thats why things are awkward.
Chris- what do you mean?
Cat- sometimes in these situations the best way to help is to just to listen and be there
Chris- really
Cat- yes. Look I know it seems difficult now but it you guys. Chris and Amy fighting against what people say and proving them wrong. Look I know you might think this sounds strange but in a way Amy brought you back.
Chris- what do you mean she brought me back?
Cat- after the accident you were miserable. You were trapped in the past. And even before the accident you weren't you. You were who Jess wanted you to be. But when you met Amy it was like you were finally remembering who you were and how you acted.
Chris- I guess I never really thought of it like that.
Cat- do you love Amy?
Chris- do course I do.
Cat- so would you do anything for her?
Chris- as long as it made her happy of course
Cat- then make your relationship work. If your truly willing to do anything for her then make her happy then do it by supporting her as best you can and by being there for her. Follow your heart Chris and make your relationship work even if she's on the other side of the country find a way.
Chris- thanks that really helped
Cat- what are big sisters for

We then hugged each other and cat got up and left. I got out my phone and started scrolling through all of the pictures of me and Amy. All of the fun times we had, all the times Amy had fallen asleep on my shoulder and all the times we had sat and talked for hours. I couldn't just give all of that up. Not after everything we've been through. All the challenges we've faced all of the obstacles they cant all be for nothing. I cant let the distance come between us and our love. Amy's the only person I can hear and maybe there's a reason for that.

All I know is that I love Amy and even if we are miles apart we'll find a way to make things work. My phone then buzzed and I looked down and saw a text from Luke.
Luke: hey how are you coping.
Chris: Fine
Luke: Really?!
Chris: Yeah I just need to make a plan and make this long distance thing work.
Luke: you'll really do anything for her wont you.
Chris: Yeah I will. She means the world to me and I'm not just gonna let her go.
Luke: I'm glad she picked you. Your a good guy Chris.

We texted each other for a while before it got late and we both said our goodbyes and went to bed.