Stray Kids Imagines

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Honestly speaking before I start this, if you are not interested please don't read. I don't want to waste your time on something or someone you don't know. Thank you.

April 2, 2018.

The day that one of my classmates oh so suddenly left us.

He smiles as if nothing happened. He jokes around as if he was okay. He joins us as if he wouldn't be injured.

We miss him.

My classmate,  Ken, died from Stage 4 cancer, one of the reasons I couldn't write was this.

He wasn't just a classmate but he was family. He was a friend,  a shoulder to lean on,  a guy with a lot of dreams and a person who can make you laugh.

To the fact that I didn't want to believe it, I still cried. I couldn't comprehend the fact that he left us that day and thought that it was for April fools.

I was busy making a story here when I got a notification from our group chat saying that they needed help for our classmate. We couldn't really donate money ourselves since we were still underage but we did try to contact churches and adoption centers as well as famous pages in the Philippines asking for help,  until they sent a photo.

It was him,  smiling in the hospital bed, with all the bandages and tubes through the his whole body.

I found myself smiling but crying at the same time.

He was trying to fight. He fought back to everything coming his way just to be with his family and us again.

But as everyone feels,  we knew he felt tired. We could see it in his eyes,  in his smile and in his words.

I still don't believe it honestly.

I'm still trying to process what happened and what is happening right now.

But what I do know is that I already miss him. We already miss him.

How he jokes around, how he plays the liar, how he laughs, how he gets embarrassed when a lot of girls says they have a crush on him and how he advices some of my classmates to stay positive.

I know crying won't bring him back but it's better to let things out now rather than being in the pain with you and not letting it go.

The worst and painful part of losing someone isn't really the fact that you'll say goodbye, it's the thought of being able to live every single day without their presence. When you know that they're not here with you anymore. Every single minute of the day is painful for all of us. It really is.

But now he's at peace. He's having eternal rest and he deserves it.

We're happy for him now.

Though we're still not over it, we wouldn't want to forget about it. We want to take this memory and bring it with us through out all the times that he would miss any special even in our life and take it as a lesson.

Not having him by our side doesn't mean we cant show him how we miss him.

We love you Ken, always.

Sorry I just really need to take this out, I'll be deleting this any minute later if I fell that I could write again, I even doubt you guys would read this but again I'm sorry for wasting your time on this.