Im tired! Book of Poems And Thoughts.

Anorexic

Its funny..

How dizzy it makes u..

How different it makes u look..

The way it makes u feel..

And its crazy..

I never thought i would take it this far..

Never thought i would get this bad..

But i did and there is nothing i can do about it anymore..

It has becomes an addiction..

I havent stoped starving..

I havent stopped binging..

I havent stopped making myself "puke"..

And the miror doesnt help..

Some say skinny..

I say fat..

Some say perfect..

I say disatster..

And whats so sick about this whole situation is that..

I wished for this..

For so long i wanted this to happen..

But now that it has i feel selfish for ever wanting it..

And still..

Sometimes i want this..

I want the never endding pain..

I want the endless hours of sitting by the tolite..

I want to sit and watch everyone else enjoy a meal..

But the other times i just want it to end..

I want the "curse of anorexia" to end.