Im tired! Book of Poems And Thoughts.

Relapse

"Clean"

A word that i say so many times..

But u can never really become clean..

Without the steps of relapse..

At first it takes over..

And u fall again..

Next it shocks u..

And u dont know where to go..

At last u relize..

And that is the worst part..

U rediscover life after a blade..

Then u began to see that u can be happy..

And then it all hits u..

The hole was never where u were supposed to be..

U were meant to be happy..

Ur life was not supposed to be a "fuck-up"..

And then u see..

What u were supposed to be..

And u began to understand..

That u are still gonna have..

The periods of depression..

But that is just because we are human..

But that makes u understand this thought..

"This is me..

And my story was never meant to end..

No,

This was only the beginning."

So next time u say ur clean..

Think of the steps of relapse..

And understand that it is not gonna be easy..

But..

We will get through this!