Im tired! Book of Poems And Thoughts.

Running

It's Pain So Bad That I Can't Even Feel It Anymore.

I Sit In The Dark And Cry My Eyes Out Some Nights

And Then Other Nights I Just Can't Find The Tears To Cry.

So I Just Shake With Sorrow.

What Did I Do To Deserve This.

I Was Once The Nice Happy Girl That Everyone Wanted To Be Around.

I Was Once Happy With Myself.

Now I Don't Even Know What Happy Is.

I'm Never Happy Anymore

Most Of The Time I Get So Upset That It's Hard For Me To Breathe

And Then Other Times I Have No Emotion

I Just Sit And Stare.

And My Only Get Away Was Taken

The Night My Mom Told Me That She Didn't Have A House

That She Was Moving To Wisconsin.

She Is Gonna Take The Only Joy In My Life,

My Little Brother

All The Way To Wisconsin.

I Mean I Guess I Can't Be Mad

Now I Really Have No Reason To Stay Here.

I Could Do It You Know

Run And Never Stop Running.

I Could Go With My Mom

But What About The Life I Have Here In Ohio?

My Dad, He Doesn't Care.

He Leaves For Weeks At A Time

And When He Comes Back Wonders Why I'm Not With Him

No Body Cares.

They Just All Leave.

Not Thinking Twice About What They Are Doing.

Can't They Look Into Their Daughters Eyes?

See That They Are Hurting Her.

Parents,

The Two People In Life That Are Supposed To Love You The Most

And They Don't Even Care

What Did I Do To Deserve Parents Like That?

I Did What I Was Supposed To Do.

Didn't I?

I Mean Of Course I Wasn't Always A Joy

And Sometimes I Would Get An Attitude

And Get Bad Grades

But I'm Only Thirteen Last Time I Checked

I Wasn't Supposed To Be Perfect.

I Sit Here And I Cry And Think I Have No Body!

No One At All No One Cares Not Even My Parents.

So Why Don't I Just Leave?

I Could Leave And Never Come Back!

Never Return.

Never Look Back.

Never Think Twice About It.

Just Go.

Why Not?

Why Am I Sitting Here Thinking About It?

When There Is A Door Right There.

So If There Is Anyone Who Cares Anyone Who Loves Me...

I'm Begging You Right Now.

Just Stop.

And Let Me Run.

Stop Loving!

Stop Caring!

That Way When I Do Run Away

You Won't Hurt.

You Won't Feel The Pain.

Because It's Coming

And It's Gonna Happen Soon.

And Just Know That I'm Sorry For Causing You The Pain

And Sorry For Leaving You.

I Just Cant Do It Anymore.

I'm So Sorry!