team free will • 5sos au

Prologue

He was sitting on his throne, so bright and majestic. He was very disappointed of us, you could recognize that from his facial expression. Like a father being let down by his own children. He removed his hands from covering his face and with a click of his fingers, the ground started shaking frantically, making a small gap turn into an enormous, deep, dark hole, us falling inside of it. I was drifting in the air, but I couldn’t stop. I was just keep falling, and falling, again and again… I looked around me; my brothers and sisters kept falling too. We were desperate to grab each other, but when we reached in to touch, it felt like burning, so we were pulling away. I had the need to cry, but I was keeping it all inside. It was really hard for everyone. I glanced down, only to see more darkness. It was like a never ending impasse.

The thing is, why did it have to end this way? Why such fuss about who’s going to lead? As if good or evil are individually pure. It’s all about love. If there’s not love among people, who cares about leadership? I would never know. No one ever explained us. When we asked our father he never gave us a clear answer. He just mustered us up in his garden and asked us to pick sides. If you had doubts, you were considered evil. That was so unfair! It all happened so fast, it was natural not to be prepared for such a situation, and under those circumstances, we should be forgiven about our choices, not thrown into the pitch black of eternity. Sometimes, I feel like there’s  nobody knowing the actual meaning of justice.

It was no one’s fault. Just one kid that felt rebellious and rioted against our father. That one brother. That one spoiled child that wanted to rise above everyone else, to indicate that they’re better than anyone else. That person is the reason we are all falling now. But the story doesn’t finish here. It has more… As everyone keeps falling, two souls’ destiny is being under serious discussion. For they decision, they’re going to pay the price. They chose each other instead of one of the two sides. They were so naïve. But I guess that’s what love does to us. It makes us weak, blind, undecided. But it fills us with faith, hope for a better tomorrow, it makes us realize that a person’s heart is above anything else of him.

Αs I keep falling, an illuminating gaze approached me, but doesn’t touch me. It’s him. I would recognize his soul everywhere. He glances at me, desperately searching for my hands with his own. “I’m sorry it had to be this way!”, he shouts at me, trying to raise the volume of his voice. “It was not your fault, brother.”, I shout back. “What did he decide for you?”, I asked. “When you reach the end, you will learn! I promise you that, sister.”, he said, apologizing. “What does that even mean?”, I question, curiously.

He didn’t even answer, and he pulled back from me, smiling bright, turning his body to face the sky, opening his arms widely and shutting his eyes closed, grinning his teeth. I was watching him transforming into a pain position, but I couldn’t comprend why. Then I knew. The air I was drifting for what it seems like forever, changed into a liquid maze. I was underwater. My body was unable to move. I tried to swim to the surface, but my arms were very heavy to move. I wafted there, watching other siblings of mine, diving in the sea. The water was really salty and I was unable to open my eyes a lot. After someone collared in, they left bubbles behind them. It didn’t feel like swimming in the sea, it was more like drowning in our own tears. But what tears am I even talking about? It was forbidden to us to cry, anyway. I was running out of breath, ready for death to take my soul away.

I never expected to die this way. Punished, unforgiven, hated by my own father, along with my brothers and sisters. And what was he talking about? I’m going to die, I will never learn what happened to the two lovers. A strike of cringe penetrates my whole body, as I leave my last breath. And that was it. I finally close my eyes, everything is finally dark. I take a last look, and I notice a hand grasping mine, dragging me up, but I give up on my senses and finally sleep. Finally.