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Chapter 5

Calum had been searching for me, but I never gave any signs of existence. I didn’t want to see him or hear him, and absolutely not Michael. I didn’t know whose fault was it, but I think at some point we should all apologize. The hard part was how. I had done some really bad shit, and I recognized that, but so did they. The thing was, it all happened just because we were intoxicated, and there comes the embarrassing part. I said whatever I said, just because I was drunk! And to be fair, so they were, but Calum seemed more sober than me and him getting that mad at me was unacceptable. I didn’t care about Michael anymore. I wish he could just disappear, I didn’t want to see him ever again in my life. I wasn’t sure if Calum wanted to see me, as well… What I said was a secret he trusted me and I let it slip out of my mouth, just like that.

But, dammit, that was the second time I saw black eyes. I wasn’t sure if this was any kind of way my brain reacted to alcohol, but it was ridiculous to bechance again. Strange thing it happened to both Calum and Michael at the same time, and even stranger, when they noticed, they gasped as if they didn’t see that coming, and then they blinked and it went away. Ashton had blinked and it went away, too. I was so confused. I needed someone to talk with and let it out of my chest. So I visited Electra.

I was at her place and we talked about that Luke guy. After the incident, the night he had left us sleep at his apartment, I had awaken around 4am and I spotted him sitting on the floor next to Electra, observing her. He looked so lost and he had this smile creeping on his face, like he had found the girl of his dreams, but it seemed kinda strange to like someone you barely knew. Maybe he was really sentimental. Maybe he was acting, but I didn’t sense such thing. I didn’t tell her about the observing thing, because she would rumble on for hours about him and I wasn’t really in the mood for her fangirling or any other sort of reaction.

“I found a letter this morning in my mailbox, but it had no address or name, just lyrics.” She was talking to me, mostly in a way she was complaining, as she brought me a piece of paper, well written. I started reading…

“I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all…”

“I told you you had a boyfriend and you wouldn’t remember!” I yelled, pointing at her direction.

“I don’t!” She yelled back, hitting her foot on the floor.

“Really? Then who do you think sent these?” I asked, squinting my eyes in a questionable look. She didn’t answer, looking away embarrassed because she knew I was right. I smirked to myself for being the true one, for once again.

“I think it’s Luke.” I spoke slowly, eyeing her, afraid of what was coming after what I had just mouthed. She blushed immensely, to the point I feared something was wrong, but she gave me an enormous toothy smile, which made me stupidly snicker.

“You think so?” She started tapping her foot again, that made me think I should never drop ideas, ever.

“It could be him.” I said, crossing my hands.

“If it’s him, wouldn’t he say that at first place?” She asked again.

“Well, Electra, I don’t think it would be that effective if he came up to you and said ‘Hi Electra, I’m Luke and before you had this terrible accident, I was your boyfriend, let’s join hands and run into the sunset with me’, see my point?” I started laughing at my awful mimicking voice, but she seemed skeptical.