The One // Magcon

»Chapter 20«

The next day I woke up around 1:30 in the afternoon and Matthew wasn't there. Where in the world could he have gone? I walked all around my house. I tried calling him for about 20 minutes, but no answer. I sat around for five hours waiting for him to show up. He never did. I called Shawn, but he didn't know where Matthew had gone. I decided to go check at Savannah's, he might have gone to see Taylor. I threw on a maroon flowy tank top and dark washed denim shorts. I slipped on my Rainbows and headed out. I didn't care what I looked like at the moment. On the way there, I brushed through my hair with my fingers. I walked in Savannah's house. No one was in the living room or kitchen. I walked down the hall to the den. No one. I walked upstairs to the guest room. Still no one. The heck?! Where is she? She didn't say she was going anywhere. I walked all the way down the hall to her room. The door was cracked. I pushed it open a little. WHAT?! Savannah and Matthew were making out on her bed. Where did his shirt go?!

"WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING?!" I yelled.

They looked at me. Matthew's jaw dropped.

"It's not what it looks like.." Matthew started.

"REALLY?! SO YOU WEREN'T JUST MAKING OUT WITH MY BEST FRIEND?!" I screamed.

He started to walk towards me. I backed away.

"DO NOT TOUCH ME! YOU KNOW WHAT?! MAYBE I WILL GO HOOK UP WITH NASH! MAYBE THAT WILL GIVE YOU A TASTE OF YOUR OWN MEDICINE!" I stormed out of the room.

I texted Nash and he was said he was on his way to my house. He always ends up being in town or near us. He was at his friend Bryan's house which was in the neighborhood. I ran to my house and Matthew ran after me. He came inside and slammed the front door.

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" I asked.

"Okay, listen. I didn't know she was going to kiss me." he said calmly.

"BUT YOU KISSED BACK! YOU CAN'T SAY YOU DIDN'T BECAUSE I SAW YOU! FOR ALL I KNOW, YOU COULD HAVE DONE WAY MORE THAN JUST MAKE OUT!" I was furious.

"Bailey..." he said.

There was a knock at the door, and I glanced at the clock. 7:00. The sun was starting to set.

"I wonder who that is." I glared at Matthew as I walked to the door.

I opened the door and it was Nash. Before he could say anything, I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him right in front of Matthew. We made out right there in front of him. Nash put his hands on my waist and pulled away.

"Whoa." he breathed. "What was that for?"

Then he looked inside and saw Matthew.

"Wait, aren't y'all dating?" he gave a confused look.

"Nope. He decided to cheat on me with my best friend." I looked back at Matthew.

"Slut!" Matthew shouted and stormed passed Nash and I.

"How am I a freaking slut?!"

"You dated Matthew, then made out with Hayes, got back with Matthew, now me... Weren't you with Shawn at one point, and wasn't their a guy from your school or something?" he explained.

I turned away from Nash. The sun had just set.

"I didn't mean it like that..." Nash sighed.

"Yes, you did." I buried my face in my hands and started to cry. "This is all my fault. I shouldn't have gone on tour."

"Ba-" I cut him off.

"NO DON'T EVEN TRY AND MAKE ME FEEL BETTER! MAYBE THIS IS ALL BE OVER IF I JUST KILL MYSELF!" I screamed and bolted upstairs.

"BAILEY!" I heard Shawn's  voice yell.

I ran into my bathroom and slammed the door shut. I slid down the door, crying so hard. I quickly locked the door. There was beating on the door. The handle was shaking from them trying to open it. I crawled over to the bathtub and gripped the razor in my hand.

"BAILEY! PLEASE! IF YOU DO THIS, I WON'T BE ABLE TO LIVE WITH MYSELF!" Shawn screamed.

"PLEASE STOP! NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT! IF IT IS ANYONE'S IT IS MINE!" Nash yelled.

That just made me cry even harder. I dropped the razor, which sliced the skin on my foot.

"BAILEY! I LOVE YOU! OKAY?! I DON'T MEAN I LOVE YOU AS A BEST FRIEND! I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THAT! PLEASE DON'T DO THIS! IT IS LIKE KILLING MYSELF!" Shawn was crying now.

I stood up slowly. The beating on the door had stopped. This changed everything.

"I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO TELL YOU THIS FOR SO LONG! YOU WERE ALWAYS IN- into Matthew... I wish I had told you before we had gone on tour. This wouldn't have happened if I had just told you." his voice was getting softer.

"Don't blame this on yourself.." I whispered where he couldn't hear.

I placed my hand on the door handle, contemplating on what would happen if I opened it. I unlocked it slowly. I opened the door. Shawn was pacing around the room, running his hands through his hair. He saw me, and his eyes were red and puffy from crying. He ran towards me and grabbed my wrists, facing them upwards. Nothing was there. He let out a sigh of relief and hugged me. He started crying, which made me cry even more. He pulled away, but kept his hands on my waist firmly.

"Don't do that again.. please." he whispered.

I nodded, looking him in the eyes. His eyes wandered to my lips. I crashed my lips into his. This felt right. What I had been looking for my whole life was right in front of me the whole time, and I didn't even notice it. He pulled away.

"I love you.." he said looking me in the eyes.

"I love you, too." I smiled.