My Healing; My Pain

2.2

i don't think i'll be sleeping tonight 

i'm too scared what me alone will do 

i'm too scared of my mind 

and i feel more like i have to puke than anything 

my parents phones are charged in our kitchen 

something about not wanting to look at electronics before bed 

(but my mom has her ipad and dad always watches tv)

my sister has school tomorrow and i think she's stressed out

she said something about a lot of work when they called 

anna goes to bed at 10 o'clock every night

she has very early classes in the morning 

and my roommates are all asleep 

i could call ashley but i feel like i dump so much on her already 

and i don't want her to see me so cut up before she comes to visit 

so i'm talking to you 

literally the only one who i can talk to 

and you're not even a person 

you're basically myself since i'm the only one who reads this 

i just don't want to go to bed