My Own Concept

My 16th Concept

My Sixteenth Concept: Imy

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"Annjelirae!" My heart almost jumped outside of my chest when you called me out while I'm walking down the hallway because I'm going to faculty room to pass my landscape draft in PLN1 for my clearance. Of course kahit na nakatalikod ako, agad kong nakilala na ikaw yung tumawag sa akin dahil sa boses mo.

I wanted to turn around to face you, and to start talking with you. However, I tried my very best to hold this back. Buti na lang talaga at hindi ko nakalimutang magsalpak ng earphone sa tenga ko kaya okay lang na hindi ako lumingon at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad na parang walang pagtawag nang pangalan ang nangyare dahil halata naman na wala akong nakarinig kasi may nakasungsong sa tenga ko.

Well, it's been a week since the last time we talked to each other. I'm really sorry because I thought that I can fix myself in this way. But sadly to say, it just hurt my heart too much than I ever guess because I'm holding myself not to see you and talk with you.

Kahit na araw-araw ka nang nagdadaan ng tikoy sa bahay namin, hindi pa din kita kinakausap. I wanted to blame myself being a rude one to you. Well, kasalanan ko naman talaga on the first place, e. Kasi kung hindi ako na-fall sa'yo at maayos kong nahawakan yung nararamdaman ko. Edi wala sana tayong probleme. Hindi sana tayo nagkakaganito. So, here I am. Umiiwas. Patuloy na umiiwas kahit ang sakit-sakit na niya dito sa puso ko.

Anyway, I thanked God when you didn't call me again. Siguro pagod ka nang magpilit na makipag-usap sa katulad kong iniiwasan ka. Sabagay, sino ba naman ako para habulin mo? Kaibigan mo lang naman ako, diba? Isa pa. Paano mo ako hahabulin kapag nagkakaganito ako sa'yo kung nasa iba naman yung atensyon mo? In short, iba yung hinahabol mo.

I was about to turn to the left side when someone stopped me by grabbing my right arm in a gentle way. Electricity runs through my veins when I felt that you were the one who stopped me. Pero... akala ko ba?

"Hi," you greeted me. My heart is melting now because you still managed to form a genuine smile kahit na halata sa mukha mo na naghabol ka kasi ang gulo na ng makapal mong buhok tapos may pumapatak nang pawis sa gilid ng mukha mo.

I pulled my right earphone slowly so that I can be able to hear you and to make me look like that I didn't really heard you calling my name earlier.

"How are you?" You asked me out of nowhere. 

Gusto kong matawa bigla dahil sa tanong mo. Sa itsura kong may napakalalim na atang eyebags dahil sa kakaisip sa'yo. Do you think I'm okay, Ariosander? 

I tried to smile to you and said "O–" but you just cut me off by saying your thoughts.

"I miss you."

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Hi, I'm sorry kasi ang sabog pa din niya. I'm looking forward na maayos ko din yung flow. Not today. HAHAHAHA. I thank you guys for still reading this story.

041218/00:06