53. SA/R

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You're fingers travel over my skin
As I prepare for the pain
And I whisper weakly into your ear
"What are you going to gain?"

You lifted your eyes at my words
For I rarely ever question;
And I never want to cross the line,
But today is an exception

I surprised myself when I asked you
And heard my words being said
And regret filled my soul
The second you lifted your head

I've been having my doubts recently
On whether this is really love;
You say what you're doing is playful,
But why doesn't it feel so fun ?

The first time it happened
I couldn't walk for days
But no mercy was shown from you
And I went on with my ways

Today, I just wanted to know
If there really was a reason
For this activity I've come to hate
With the passing of each season

However, I wasn't expecting
The words that you spat out.
My thoughts were confirmed
When out from your mouth

"Power, my love, power-
Power over you"
Said with such force,
A tone, sadly, not new

But my dear ex lover
What you didnt know
That I had such power in me
To push you off and go

So your disgusting ways
Which I've now come to realise
Was not love nor fun
In either of our eyes

You are a horrible monster

And if I ever see you again

I will not even look your way

Because now, I hate men.

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