I, Death

Wednesday February 15, 2012 - 5:14 AM

Valentine’s Day was harder than I thought it would be.

And I’m embarrassed to admit something that helped me get through it.

I don’t normally like pop music or top 40 stuff — most of my favourite music tends to be stuff that was released a generation or two back. I do like some new stuff, but they tend to be alternative bands and not the kind of stuff that you’d hear on the average radio station. Maybe that’s why I like q92 so much — they do play new stuff, some top 40 rock and pop songs, but do a great job of mixing it in with a lot of the older things that I like: Led Zeppelin, The Who, Pink Floyd, ac/dc.

Anyway, there’s this top 40 song from a few years back they’ve been playing in a semi-regular rotation on Q92 that speaks to me. It’s the song by Simple Plan called “Welcome to My Life”

I love how the song addresses the things I’m going through. It asks if you ever feel like breaking down, if you ever feel out of place, like you don’t belong or that nobody understands you.

Sometimes I catch myself singing the song out loud when I’m alone in my room.

“Do you ever wanna runaway? Do you lock yourself in your room?” I sing, usually along to Simple Plan coming out full blast from my speakers so that “no one hears you screaming” as the song goes.

I don’t really know much about their music, but this song says it like it is. These guys actually get it. I went and downloaded the song from iTunes and ended up just playing it over and over and over again, and singing the lyrics at the top of my voice.

“To be hurt,” I scream the lyrics out. “To feel lost! To be left out in the dark!”

I jump around the room while I sing this, trying my best to let out the pent-up energy and frustration.

“To be kicked,” I scream, “when you’re down – to feel like you’ve been pushed around.”

All during this singing I certainly feel, as they sing, on the edge of breaking down with nobody there do save you.

Indeed, as their song goes “you don’t know what it’s like – welcome to my life.”

Geez, my buddies, who have similar tastes in harder, edgier rock music would cringe if they knew I was up all night last night, playing this song over and over again with headphones on and screaming those lyrics into my pillow.

But it helps. It really does.

– 5 Comments –

Franny said...

That's a great song. (You had me singing there for a while.) If you have the time, try downloading “Life” by Our Lady Peace. You might like it.

Kim said...

It doesn't matter how you did it, just as long as you make it through. In the end that's all that counts.

Frank said...

Music can bring me comfort like nothing on earth. You need not care what other people think of your music, as long as it works for you, Peter

Peter O'Mallick said...

I did download that song, like you suggested Franny. And it was pretty cool.

You know what; you're pretty cool, after all.

MaliceAD said...

Have you heard “Never Tomorrow” by Imperative Reaction? Music can bring you great comfort in the most trying of times.