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Chapter 6: Knowing You

Wang So Pov

I went down to the place where Ha Jin had taken Hana to.

"You want to join them on the dance floor?" asked Haneul.
He had to talk to me into my ears since it was so noisy.

Is this what they call dance? It's so random. They are just moving their hips and throwing their arms about.

I roll my eyes at their dance and nod at Haneul.

"Is this dancing?" I ask him.

"Hell yeah" and he pulls me into the crowd.

It takes a lot of patience not to hit people who tug at me. Some females try to get me to dance with them. I just push myself away, moving towards where Ha Jin is 'dancing' with Hana. I remember Hae Soo dancing and singing on Eun's birthday.
It was so cute.
She was dancing differently though. Her hips were moving and her hands moved over her body.
It was a lovely sight. The beats of the music were sensual and I felt my throat turn dry.
Someone suddenly pushed her and she crashed into me and was in my arms.
She looked up and our eyes met. She looked astonished.

I remember this look.

It was the same as the one Hae Soo had when I first met her.
I had scooped her when I was riding on my horse. She had nearly fallen off as I rode on the narrow road.

What did I do back then?

I pushed Ha Jin away from me and she staggered backwards and crashed against someone else. She apologized to him and glared at me, "What on earth! Do I look like a thing that you just push me away?"

Ah deja vu was so sweet right now.

"You're sweaty" I said.

Yes, she was sweaty. But it didn't make her look bad. In fact it increased her appeal and I wanted to hold her close and kiss her.

"Asshole" she said.

What was that?

"What's that?" I asked, feeling stupid but she didnt hear me. She went back, dancing with Hana.

I didn't want to ask that to her: questions like 'what is that?'

I felt very stupid right now.

I can't make her mine when I haven't figured this place out yet. How will I walk with her and move around when I can't even drive a car? How can I converse with her when I can't understand the modern lingo? How do I meet her without using my brothers unless I establish myself in my career? They said I was famous, but I didn't even know what I was doing since I did not have Joongi's memories.

I had a lot of catching up to do.

I had to know myself first...
... before I could approach her for real.

I want back to the lounge and waited for Haneul or Hana to come up and then take me home.

I hated that I knew nothing.
I felt alone.

I shouldn't feel alone.

Imagine what Ha Jin felt as Hae Soo when everyone deserted her. She had no one in that world to support her.
I had such supportive step-siblings here.

But she had very few people there. No one really.

The only true person she had, her cousin, died. And the one person she trusted after that, Wook, couldn't protect her. Court Lady Oh died protecting her. And when I was all she had, I ruined her.

I couldn't protect her.
I couldn't love her true.

I wanted to love her. Here. And now.
But before that, I wanted to be capable.

I wanted to be independent and powerful like Ha Jin here.
Only then will she look at me.
And like what she sees.
And only then can 'we' be a possibility.

I'm going to learn everything I can.

I'm going to be hers.

I'm going to be the best for her.

-Purple Poesy

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