You say you have become numb
Like the way I was
You say you are putting all your focus on yourself now
Like I don't matter to you at all
You sound cold as you say it
Little do you know it makes me proud of you
Also instills a fear about our uncertain relationship
I had always had an aversion to men
They scare me
Maybe I know the reason why
And it started with my big guy
The big man in my life
The biggest bully
You could say he is the reason love and affection seems like nothing but a deceitful facade of dominance and patriarchy
But, all that was until I met you and I felt like sharing things with you was safe,
but we never met physically often enough for your masculinity to scare me too
Maybe that's why I felt comfortable with you
With the idea of you
With the absence of your physical being
But I should also say you stemmed to me to be soft on the inside
Although you might try to be rude sometimes
I understand why you do what you do
You have a past
And it haunts me everytime I think of it
That brought me closer to you, in a way
And I let that same past break us
I tell you all this and you say you don't recall
You weren't the most stablest of the people I knew
So I guess it's better that you don't recall it all
Stay numb, for it is the best way I have ever known to be
And I am happy you get to experience what it feels like to be me
YOU ARE READING
My Poetry is You
PoesiaThis is a collection of free-verse poems that I am currently writing on the people I have met and have yet to meet in life and about the humane feelings and psychology. This miscellany of writing will slowly cover almost all aspects of life that I...
