The 5th Member

Chapter 21

Lexi POV

I decides to slip on a sundress and a jean jacket considering the warm weather we are having today. I feel good. For the first time since the hospital, I really feel good.

I just feel like Liam doesn't feel the same.

I mean, I know he is kind of pissed that want to see my dad. He gives me all these little smiles and stuff but.. Maybe he doesn't feel the same anymore.

When I woke up, he seemed very in love. As I slowly started to recover and become my own person.. He is starting to fall out of the love.

I'm probably just overthinking things, but I feel different from when I woke up. He was so worried. Now it is slowly just wearing off.

I decide to put off these thoughts for now. I'm going to the studio to record an album! This is a huge step for me, because I never remember actually recording.

I Hug my bag to me as I gently pad down the stairs, almost hoping that Liam won't notice me as I slide out the door.

"Lexi?" He says with a confused expression on his face, his brow scrunched. He is making it hard to avoid him.

"Hey.." I say walking into the kitchen and getting a glass I water.

"What's wrong?" He says coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist.

"I'm fine, I promise" I say wiggling out of his arms.

"Yeah right.. Lexi I've known you for about a year now, and I know you aren't okay."

Maybe he is still just as in love in me as much as he was.

"I feel like you don't love me as much as you did right when I woke up.. In the hospital." I say quietly. When it all comes out, I'm actually slightly embarrassed at his reaction.

"Ha, is this some kind of sick joke or something?" He scoffs, and walks over

so close to me.

He is about an inch away from my face when he begins to speak again.

"Lexi, let's get this straight. I love you. Okay? I know that a lot of people will feel love in their lifetimes, but out if all the people in the world, a man will never EVER love a woman more than I love you. And I know that sounds crazy, but it's so true." Liam finished and squeezes my sides making me yelp.

I'm in a fit of giggles as he pulls my hips closer to him.

"So stop being weird and love me.." He says into my ear.

I turn around to face him and I just stare at him with a smile on my face, I still feel a slight anxiety that he may not mean what he is saying. I don't know, I'm weird like that and I always think of the worst possibilities.

"Not now" I say laughing "I'm going to the studio" I say and begin to walk toward the door. I know the car will be here any minute now.

"Hey, knock that off, that "not knowing if I love you" stuff" Liam says seriously "I dont like the thought of losing you at all"

I nod at him and open the front door. Maybe I am just overreacting.. I just don't know how to feel about him. What if there are secrets he is hiding from me that I don't know about? How am I really supposed to know.

Of course Liam doesn't seem like the type of person who would ever do something like that. Like.. Everything that he says, and the way we look with the media seems like we never had problems.

I'm going to make sure I take it down a couple notches. I feel like I'm falling in too fast.. I need to stop thinking about this.

Right now, I need to focus on the music that I'm going to be recording today.

But the whole ride I just can't help but think of him.

"Baby you and me for keeps, you bring out the best in me, now you know what's real.." I sing.

I really sound much better than I thought that I did.

I come out of the recording booth and sit down on one of the big comfy black leather couches. I lean my head back and close my eyes. I can't think straight.

"Lex.." Perrie says, her expression is soft but I see the concern in her face.

"Babe, you've been out of the hospital for almost a month now.. What's wrong?" She says and comes and sits right next to me, followed by Jade and Leigh. Jesy is recording at the moment or else she'd probably be over here too.

"What if I don't know what's real.." I say "like what if Liam isn't who I think he is, what if he doesn't love me as much as I think."

"Oh my god I cannot believe this is coming from your mouth.." Leigh say and kind of laughs

"Lexi, Liam thinks you're the most lovely girl in the world.. Couldn't imagine him ever hurting you" leigh finishes and rolls her eyes.

"And that may be true.." I add "but it's weird not remembering anything you know?" They all nod, but they don't know. They don't know how it is.

I feel so stupid.

"Lexi they need you back in the booth" Jesy says as she comes out of the booth. I shake all the weight all my shoulders by belting out all of my verses I record.

I'll talk to Liam later,

Right now it's about my music

(UGH I know that took forever! The good news is that I am getting a laptop so it will be easier to update and write longer chapters! Love yallllllll!)